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2011-08-06T22:08:00.000+08:00

hello!

im now at amberxoxo.onsugar.com

samantha

my ugly hair

2009-11-23T21:52:00.002+08:00

can i say how much i hate my hair?

ive been saying that for the past 5 months from the moment i saw it in the mirror of the salon after i permed it

it's HORRID.

it's not just my damaged hair, it's the whole look of it!!

well lesson learnt: i should stick to my rebonded hair since i look best in it

never again will i be possessed and decide to perm it

it's like shit and i concluded my hair's probably dropping cos i tie it up so much and since it's long it tugs at my hair roots and make them loose and eventually they fall out

ohmygod.

and in case you're wondering why i havent done anything about it,

well partly i cant cos my hair's so damaged by perming and colouring if i go rebond it now, i probably lose my hair and have to wear a wig,so i gotta wait till like goodness knows when ohmy save me

and partly cos i dont want my mum nagging about how i waste money just cos someone paid for my perming and i dont feel the pinch of spending such money of my hair

and partly cos my uncle whom i hardly see and who paid for my perm is gonna see me during cny and he prob go like 'what happened to that perm' and since it would only be half a year ago it's not gonna be pleasant

my birthday wish is to go rebond my hair at that far east place and get my super soft nice pretty hair backk:((

make my wish come trueee and i'll love you

haha

back to dengue fever

slap my face if i tell you im still on viruses tmr;

update.like finally

2009-11-23T00:03:00.002+08:00

oops.

it's been 3 months.

okay i swear swear i will make an effort to blog more often.

cos actually i do have alot of stuff to say..

life's been so full of drama mediacorp can do some serial drama of it

but things have toned down recently, and im really thankful.

i've probably cried more the past two years than i've ever did my whole life

it's time for this emo-ness to stop.

sch's good.

im focusing, able to study though the laziness in me is still not cured and probably will never be

still procrastinating

still dancing

still swimming weekly at least

still learning the drums

and oh sth new i joined gymnastics

yay yay im back to my beloved trampoline(:

anw i did weights today

for the like um, first time in my life

bro thought i was nuts

i want toned arms and legs!

gym is a good start though(:

as in gymnastics

i realise im afraid to lose people

im scared of getting attached because i fear that one day, his love for me will fade and even though then, i still love him, it's pointless cos we would have to break up cos one-sided relationships never work

i should stop this paranoia

and my deep down fear of how no guy would ever like or date me if i broke up with aloy turned out to be unfounded, or at least, semi-unfounded

to think i used to cry over it

hey you would have, if you thought you would have to be single and alone your whole life, it's pretty depressing really

okay it's time to studyy(:

august 2009 is when it all started

2009-08-23T20:38:00.000+08:00

it's been one month.
too many things have happened.
i think i need a break.

it's my 5th drum lesson and im starting to get the hang of it
when i get nervous, i start to screw up.

redang was awesome.
i got sunburnt lobster red in just one day.
we clubbed,we drank.
snorkelling is saltwater choking sometimes.
we looked forward to all our mealtimes-the food is that good.
i love the fine soft sand and the blue blue sea
i just wanna stay in that paradise forever.

rag dance everyday from 3rd aug till 8 aug
9am-8pm everyday.
no time to sleep, no time for my friends.
i regretted joining rag at some points in time,
i felt like i was wasting my holidays,
being the slacker i am

and then i met you.

'pain, like everything else, is the present. It is constantly changing and will come and go. It is important to experience painful situations because you can learn from them, and it is better to stay fully in the present and feel the pain than to try to distract yourself with something else. '

'It is always hard to let go of the past. Even when we think that we have let go, subconsciously we are still clinging on stubbornly, refusing to let things go. Let me tell you that it is only hard to let go if you have not learnt from the past. As soon you learn and let go, you improve the present. '

these 2 quotes have never meant so much to me.

2009-07-10T00:01:00.003+08:00

medicamp's over!:(

i feel like crying.

really.

anw 29th june-1july

trial camp!

which was ultimately fun cos we merged with another OG!

new friends!

i'd give anything to relive trial camp seriously

had sakae sushi with grandpa on both 2/3july

3rd july

DANCE

performance is in less than TEN DAYS

omg

4th july

precamp tea - new juniors!! for ONCE, my saturday morning starts at 8AM

JAZZTTITUDE rehearsal for performance as7 2pm - 4pm

home, barely got to bathe

dinner with my very-long-havent-see yi po!

and wen xin my childhood friend

dearest i just love talking to you! everything and anything!

i cant believe our kite-flying, cycling, walk in longkang days were TEN plus years ago!

5th july

DATE with RACHAEL

hun i heart you deep deep!<3

the laughter, the girl talk, the clothes/shoes shopping, never failing to stop by SaSa everytime, the hair appointments!

cant wait to see you this wed at AMK for our girl pamper session(:

registered for DRUM LESSONS

like finally.

cantwaitcantwait.

i start lessons on 19th!

6th july to 9th july

MEDICAMP

new friends - both M2s and M1s

deepened friendships

my histo buddy bullies me!

i dont know where or how to start describing everything that happened.

cos each day of activities would take like 500words minimum seriously.

in short and sweet, the memories i'll never forget:

6th july

various OG m2s swimming together at the pool at 8plus pm the first night, including me and hanx lol.

amazing race - sometimes cheating isn't hard really(:

the most number of BURGERS i've ever bought in my WHOLE LIFE.

barefoot street soccer with guys and girls and only girls can score

7th july

7+ am wakeup

mass breakfast

STATION GAMES (12 stations)

we won everyting but 2

got dunked like twice or thrice involuntarily at just ONE GAME

smeared by minty shaving cream everywhere

wheelbarrow banana (i played)

disgusting twister

the balloon on wrists thing that we FINALLY WON (our og lost during medicamp 08 and trial camp 09) (i love this game-YAY that i got to play heee)

the pail and sock game

pampers on your head!

guy-girl obstacle

soak the pillows and squeezeee (and cheat alot)

war games in the afternoon

free RED BULL

RED BULL VODKA

WE WON WAR GAMES!

fright night preparation

bonding through decorating the place

dinner, makeup, costumes, trial run

FRIGHT NIGHT

was till like 530am, i was in the first shift, thankfully.

laughed at some people's reactions when they get scared (i swear it's hilarious!)

8th july

woke up at SIX PLUS AM omg

havent since like jc days

cabbed to AIRPORT terminal 2 to pick up aloy

he was kinda dao-ish but listened patiently as i rattled on abt medicamp, realised i cant talk abt what happened for 2hours straight if i wanted to and still wont finish lol

went to his house where his dad's gf and his dad's gf's mum was in

watched him unpack his stuff

met DAIDALOS at hong lim food centre at CHINATOWN

FOOOD TRAIL

walked from chinatown to raffles place to city hall to dhoby

SETTLER'S CAFE - mindgames

a billion laughs and counting!!

i really suck at such things.like first hand lol.

sometimes i think im retarded really lol

FINALE NIGHT

mental sums - that guy is some maths genius luh wth

dont forget the lyrics!

AUCTION - we got an awesomely prettttyy soccer ball that we all signed on and 60 dollars timezone card (which seemed alot at tt point in time, till we OVERSPENT at timezone at vivo today -.- )

rode in a LORRY for the FIRST TIME -derrick drove hanx and i to get food from fong seng

talked to siva and hanx and jia an etc

was eating sara lee chocolate pound cake with ron and a few M2s.

took a walk with hanx to SRC to find the guys but met them along the way

OG CIRCLE TALK - where we all gathered in the LT in a circle sitting on our sleeping bags and just talking and laughing till 330am

didnt sleep at all.HELP.

151 to grandma's to nap and bathe at 8plus

met an m1 and we intro-ed and chatted all the way from NUS to my stop

met the OG at 11plus at VIVO

sat in a circle outside food republic

some bunch of guys presumably on orientation asked me to take a photo with them (prob some amazing race thing or sth) weird la

TIMEZONE

where we spent like 100bucks at least lol

fixed my broken nail:)

i loveee my toenail colour now haha

omg way too long blogpost.

time to stop.

DANCE tmr

CIP at marina barage on saturday

grandpa's 80th bday dinner on sat night

24th triennial intervarsity games performance on sunday (i think)

PHOTOS SOOOON on fb!

my lovely sunday

2009-06-28T22:50:00.002+08:00

blue basil is at 56 cairnhill road.

aloy and i walked from newton mrt in search of this 'hidden find'(tt's what hungrygowhere calls it)

we passed 53,55,57 cairnhill road but 56 was not in sight.

we walked down towards mount elizabeth link road and in desperation, he consults his GPS.

who the hell uses GPS while walking in spore?!!(besides tourists)

still clueless.

samantha sees a restaurant that says 'cafe.bar.grill' and highly resembles pictures of bluebasil she saw on the website.but it's obstructed by a truck parked right smack in front of it.

aloy walks up a bit further and tries to see the name of it-cant see.

i give up on the gps, my heels were killing me, the hot was blazing and i was wearing black.

i hail a cab.

56 cairnhill road please,uncle,thanks

he barely drives 10m and we reach-it was the 'cafe.bar.grill' place!!

OMG.

we laugh like crazy over our stupidity.

lunch was lovely.

totally quiet and peaceful.

service was good(:

walked to paragon and orchard etc

didnt have much to buy:/

oh.

bought plasters though,to nurse my poor feet.

looked around.

didnt feel like buying anything.

amazingly.

today was good(:

2009-06-26T14:06:00.003+08:00

im blogging cos.

my sis is a loyal reader and there's nth new for her to read.

haha.

mon

filming at sentosa for medicamp video

9am at harbourfront mrt

omg first time im up before 11am

but it's nice to take the train at EIGHT am in the morning with all the office people

was filming at sentosa the whole day till like 4+ where we went over to ben's friend's house for the longtableweallproposeatoast scene(:

his friend had a lovely but kinda ulu house along old holland road

thanks daddyy for the lift home(:

tues

headed to mang's house in the morn!

woodlands to ecp area = FARRR AWAYY

lunch at old airport road - no fair,i wanna live in the east tooo!

took a short bus ride to suntec to play arcade

walk walk look look see see suntec before heading back to roxy square

sonata dancewear has an outlet there-im amazed

dancewear is VERY EXPENSIVE

jazz pants was $45.50 and my foot undeez was $39.60.

didnt expect it to cost sooo much :/

and now im broke.

bought aloy sth too(: *yayy* hope he likes it!

SWIMMING

i wanna move into his condo

looking at the pool from his balcony makes me feel like im at a beach resort

pizza hut delivery for dinner(:

197 is a HORRIBLE bus to take

crazily long journey omg.

never ever ever again.

dance was.um.satisfying.

okay maybe not the chaines,where i cant spot properly still.

now i know why i get cellulite on my thighs-not been dancing for too long.

technique class was 730-9pm

homeee.

wed

went to val's house to teach her dance!

haha dance really makes you sweat ALOT.

buffet at nihon mura, tampines sports complex

simultaneously,my og was watching i love you,man at ps

:( that i cldnt make it.

jane msged to ask if aloy n i wanna watch transformers w her and laurel

but dad booked tickets for us on friday 10pm, after my dance.

shopped with val at tampines 1

bought clothes again

OMG.

im a SHOPAHOLIC

somebody stop me please

hey but i thought HARDD and LONGGG before spending lor haha

168 has this makeyoufeellikesleeping feeling.seriously.

maybe cos it's expressway all the way

thurs

filming again at sentosa!

was there almost the whole afternoon..

haha quite fun

tourists were actually watching and some used their digital cams to video us too lol

was supposed to meet daddy at raffles to get a lift home so i can avoid rush hour traffic but got back to harbourfront at 6plus

thankfully daddyy picked me up from sentosa(:

fri

supposed to have cheerleading stunt prac from 2-6pm but it got postponed to next thurs and fri morning

dance later from 6-8pm

TRANSFORMERS -im watching at 10pm later(:

sat

supposed to have my grandpa's bday dinner

but it's postponed to 11th july

(thankfully jazzttitude performance is shifted to 12th july!)

there's revenge of the titans flea tmr at mount sophia

um dont think im going

no shopping.no shopping.gotta stop shopping.

nxt mon and tues- medicamp trial camp (nt sure if im going)

wed - meet rachael chang!

thurs and fri -probably dance and cheerleading stunt prac

another busy wk :/

photos

2009-06-01T17:56:00.006+08:00

butter fac photos!!

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=98918&id=709696439

MUNUS 09

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=99432&id=709696439

events from feb till may

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=98970&id=631585941

finally

2009-06-01T16:03:00.003+08:00

sorry for MIAing.

my life is a horrid tangled web of complications full of drama everyday to make it worse.

that pretty much sums everything up.

PROs was..um..i dunno,worrying for paper 2 like hell but think the rest were pretty alright.

i'm satisfied,but my parents aren't.

my singlehood love life?screwed up.

i miss school.

i was happy like every single moment,every single day when there was still school.

it's not that i'm not thankful for the holidays which everyone has been looking forward to

it's just that i think i don't make full use of my holiday time as compared to my school time.

because in hols,i get stuck at my grandma's house(every hols) for at least a few days to a week and there is NOTHING to do here-boredom redefined.

right, i'm here now-.-

i wonder if anyone still does read my been-dead-for-so-long blog

but if you do, here's a brief update:

studying for PROs since idunnowhen be it at yong siew toh library or science library

hanging out with my OG, movies, food..i still love 17 again

flea markets!

blog shopping!

jazz com stuff!

dinner and dance stuff

MUNUS'09

clubbing! rebel, lunar, butter factory, zouk

catching up with friends

spending time with my dearest sis val<3

hushedlush dates at chijmes lei garden, canele..

holidays started 16days ago.

calendar's been packed for may

more peaceful now.

or maybe cos im at my grandma's house where there is absolutely NOTHING to do

okay i shld stop harping on that haha

and now,i think it's time to go out

butter fac photos

MUNUS photos

random photos

all on FACEBOOK(:

i'll be in guangzhou sooon!!

can't wait:D

i promise you PHOTOS

many many photos!

till then

xoxo

yet another awesome week

2009-04-03T23:16:00.012+08:00

NIKE advert!

dont they make the nike cap look cool?

like whatever?:D

stick your tongue out!

ST JAMES POWERHOUSE

lucy, sup and me!
queuing for drinks?

dancing @ powerhouse

the 'cool' people in my OG? haha

HUH WHAT?

rag dance auditions on monday.

the osa thing totally sucked.

wednesday

i rebonded my hair and have the shortest fringe ive had since primary school(well actually it isnt that short,but relatively it is)

my first time at west coast plaza with dearest val for dinner at MOF

i miss salmon sashimi

ST JAMES POWER STATION with my og-m1s and m2s

boiler room, gallery bar, powerhouse.

i love love cranberry vodka(:

MAMBO @ zouk

phuture

purple cow

it's time things change

thursday

it doesn't matter anymore

but i'll still live on it

friday

tut was soo long and draggy

og lunch at west co'z cafe at west coast plaza (thanks val for recommending!)

cheap.but took damn long to come.

dessert at MOF

nike factory outlet camwhoring

more photos?
nike FOS - http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=89830&id=709696439

ST JAMES POWERHOUSE -http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=89655&id=709696439 http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=89661&id=709696439

2009-03-23T18:30:00.003+08:00

dance every night last week except tues and sat.
dance every night this week except mon and sat.
concert is this weekend.
but im not getting that adrenaline rush i thought i would.
things have changed.

clubbed with like almost 30medicine ppl last wed at mambo!
usual clubbing ppl lol!
still love that feeling!

i'm addicted.

the loreal makeover on tues made me look like i was going for prom.
the hair, the makeup, the photoshoot..
it's free so im not complaining:D

Disney On Ice was lovely(:
i still love Disney as much as ever
aurora and ariel are still my favourite.

i always laugh like hell at og outings.
like thursday at novena the jap buffet place(:
slumdog millionaire was worth the money(:

i love rosti at marche and i never get sick of it.
the fondue too(:

my week was a hurricane/tornado/whirlwind
but it's the way i like it(:

you dont wanna look at schedule book;

AWESOME

2009-03-16T23:34:00.002+08:00

medicine cheerleading stunts was awesome awesome today!!!
double/doublehalf pop twists?cradle double twists!(:
single ax(cant spell) and the one where the base holds both my feet in his right hand w his arm extended!
YES!
juli and jeanne were high.we all were!haha cos it was like 'sam you wanna try?' then they taught me then somehow i also dunno how but i could do!!
so poor samuel and rayan had to keep doing with me haha.
YAYYY!
stunts till 7!

dance 730-abt 1030
TIREDD!!

Disney Princesses On Ice tmr!!
Loreal makeover too(:

my phone!

2009-03-10T17:57:00.000+08:00

i lost my phone on sat:(!!
please please sms me your numbers k!

xoxo

my saturday

2009-02-28T23:42:00.005+08:00

today is the SHITTIEST DAY OF MY LIFE
um let's see,
1) i bang my head super hard on the taxi roof when i jumped into the taxi cos it stopped in the middle of nowhere(reena and i were desperate for a taxi cos we were alr late for the photoshoot)
2) the taxi driver took us for a joy ride so instead of a 5buck ride, it's more than double the price.he can u-turn at the sim lim square area THREE TIMES and go through ERP(brainless seriously) and he tried to make us get down the taxi at some ulu place.my luck to have met a psychopath.
3) photoshoot ended sooo late and i was more than half hour late to meet twin:(
4) when we tried to exit tanjong pagar it started raining-.- and it was actually NOT raining when she arrived
5) we eat at soup spoon within tanjong pagar mrt and i forgot to bring my 'claim-one-free-soup' soup spoon card to redeem.
6) it stopped raining so we start walking along wallich road, two minutes later, it was pouring.with thunder and lightning.
7) we ask for directions to neil road to just abt anyone we saw, and in the process ran through the thunderstorm a lot till we were both soaking dripping drenched shitass wet-worse than after i bathe.
8) when we're finally at neil road,we had to slosh through ankle-deep water and higher at the shophouses area and it was such a bad flood i was considering going for a swim in the long pool of water.
9) oh, the cherry on top of the cake, oh yeah, that would be the SWIMMING COCKROACH and the DEAD COCKROACH in the water.so yes you get it,i walked through cockroach water.
10) finally we find the flea market,which was freezing air con cold,only to realise tt it's not two storeys and not 60stalls as stated:(
11) i was soo WET and looked so horrible someone selling clothes at the flea gave me a polo top FREE to change into
12) the flea market wasnt very nice=/
but i did buy a brand new juicy couture velvety jacket and track pants(:
13) went with sam to have some food at pearl centre
14) went over to aloy's place to clean up and shower,went with him to tg rhu at marina bay to his ex classmate's condo costa rhu for a bbq
15) headed over to downtown east for his bro's bday chalet, except with my 'concussed' head, i wasnt feeling too good.even after two panadols.

and that concludes my shitty day.
which involved alot of places i now realise-i feel like i just toured spore.
bugis, opp sim lim, tanjong pagar, outram, boon keng, marina bay, downtown east @ pasir ris

no wonder im tired.

twin i love you for everything!(:
and im sorry for the hell we went through today:s
but it was a nice crazy experience with you(:
as always, you're awesome and i love spending time with you!
seeyou soon hun
till then, xoxo

BUSYY

2009-02-16T21:05:00.005+08:00

medicine cheerleaders!!
im the centre one(:

MEDICS AT MAMBO!
of cos not all of us.
there are MOREEEE!

outside lunar(:
before we met the guys and more medics at mambo!

clubbing!lunar/zouk
we took like 200photos?!?!HAHA!

baking for vday at christine's 12feb 2009

stunts prac 13feb 2009 friday!

sorry poor blog for neglecting you for so long!
havent had time to blog.
let's see..

2 feb-6feb
was a freaking crazy week.
i hardly had any time to eat.literally.
dance on tues night, wed night and fri night(abt 2-3hrs each time)
cheerleading stunts every day in the afternoon, 930am to 5pm on thurs.
MAMBO/LUNAR on wed!till zouk closed.
i slept at 4am 2 consecutive nights that week.
bazaar helpout 6pm to 10pm on thurs.
i hardly studied,didnt have the time anyway,unless you count the 1-2hrs in between events.
6 feb friday - medlaw soccer and cheerleading stunts performance at law campus(photos on facebook)
watched medlaw rugby after stunts prac on wed before dance prac
and you would have thought my schedule would be free what with no school on thurs and fri(that almost NEVER happens)

9feb-13feb
was better-less activities but studies-wise,it was a busy week.
studied on monday(finally a day with NOTHING after school)
dance tues, wed and fri again!
dance was 4hrs on tues,which nearly killed me, cos sch was 830-4pm.
wed was 830am-5pm of classes, dance at 630pm.
thurs i ponned endocrine tut to go bake at christine's house(:
we baked brownies and cookies!=)
heartshaped!
met val dear sis that night and had a lovely talk!!
chionged vday presents on thurs night till nearly 3am.

cheerleading stunts, floorball, and DND com meeting on fri afternoon!
celebrated sharon's bday!(:
dance at night.
i love how close the cheerleading people are(:
we rock!(:

VDAY'09
lunch at dozo was absolutely fabulous(:
photos again
flea market
the lovely gifts from aloy!!
darling i really love you so so much!(:
saturday was cozy, fun, laughable, happy, passionate, loveydovey, cute, awesome and romantic!

choice

2009-01-23T22:34:00.002+08:00

my life.is a blur.
too many things going on at the same time.
im too lazy to blog abt all my crazy days.
you can see my calendar if you like.
and dont ask me how i manage to squeeze time to study.

stunts.
soon, dance.
private gym prac?
DnD'09 com!
PR
catching up with frens
og outings
my darlings
the blogshop stuff
did i leave anything out?

thursday night was awesome!
had stunt prac from 3+(right after tutorial) to 6+
dinner with christine
luge/skyride with christine and yunpei
tons of camwhoring!! we love 9 straight shots dont we?:D
camwhoring at siloso in the dark
cafe del mar!at the canopy bed
i declare sex on the beach my favourite drink!=D

today.23jan
was awesome!
I HEART HC
street market
val, toon and robert
MEDICINE PPL(:
medicine batch photo at the central plaza!
teachers!
i just LOVE sch to the max
cabbing back to sch for lipid metab lect

mini og shopping at orchard
ALOY at pasir ris!(:

my blogging less is cos i hardly have time to on com go online-.-
on a random note, gossip girl is annoyingly addictive.

you know you love me.
xoxo

the 5 days of my life

2009-01-09T21:28:00.007+08:00

PHOTOS *click

these past 5 days have been rather fulfilling.
it's not like he's going to prison or hell or sth and not coming back but somehow i cant help feeling more anxious and scared with each day that passes as it drew closer to the 9th jan enlistment date.

one of the 5 most happiest days of my life
monday
we had lunch at marche vivocity
and just enjoyed each other's company as we walked around pet lover's centre looking at our favourite hamsters and shih tzu
we parted at 345pm as he had driving lesson, and met up again at boon keng mrt at 545pm
had dinner with his family at some seafood restaurant at serangoon
his dad fetched me back after that and i watched the last episode of the little nyoya

tuesday
i rushed off after anat prac to meet him at bugis
we took a walk to purvis street and had lunch at ms clarity's cafe
we then walked around bugis and bugis street shopping, buying clothes, strolling around in the shopping mall..
the laughs, the smiles, the silly comments and teasing..
had dinner at some duck rice place which was pretty good then i had to go back pgp cos my dad wanted to drop by to pass me some stuff.

wednesday
played floorball with medicine ppl!
abt 15 ppl turned up
sup and i were the only girls -.-
so we ended up splitting into 3teams, 5 each
my team had mayank, khang chiang, xavier, yunsong and me
thanks to mayank's pro-ness,the 2goals = winner, and loser team is kicked out to make way for the other team, my team played pretty long-we played the longest among the three, or at least till abt 12pm when i left to bathe back at pgp

clinicals was FUNN! got to feel pitting edema, hear the lack of breath sounds in a patient with pleural effusion, and learnt the simple, yet important capillary refill test(:
met aloy at novena at 7+ i had dinner at kfc
we then took a train up to PUNGGOL
ULU LIKE CRAP.
aloy and i took a photo standing in the middle of the road-seriously no car passes by anyway.
had to cab to punggol marina, which was again almost deserted

I LOVE PRAWNINGGG
guozhen's cousin works there
so with guozhen with us, we got a discount(:
but qt sad, we like 3hours only catch 3prawns or sth-everytime the prawn bit, we lacked skill to pull it in:(
i went to help this china guy refill the ponds, then he gave me a GIANT prawn for free.HEEE then he see us catch so little, he gave us 10frozen prawns for free too and helped us fish for more prawns XD
we prawn-ed till 1+ AM
bought charcoal to set up the bbq pit to cook the prawns(:
by the time we cabbed back, it was really late
we slept at 3+am which explained my missing the first lecture on thurs morn :x

THURSDAY - the last day
nth fancy
aloy wanted to kick ball for the last time at NAFA where his elder bro studies
so it was soccer for him from 3-5
met him at 5+ and we had dinner at soup spoon
met his mum and his little bro after that
then i temp. permed my hair cos they had those academy salons at bugis which were pretty reasonably priced.
we went to his house after that

SLEEEEPOVER.
cooked maggie mee for supper
spent some time camwhoring
he has very nice broad shoulder and really lovely pec major muscles!
it was nice to lie on his chest, listen to his heartbeat, feel his muscular arms..
i didnt feel like sleeping that night-i felt like if i did, i might wake up and he wouldnt be there anymore.
our 'last moments' were mundane
yet its the simplicity and everyday love of it all that i truly endear

FRIDAY
woke up pretty early
had bak kut teh for breakfast before heading to pasir ris interchange
i liked the ferry trip
makes me feel like i was going for some holidayyy HAHA
then the tour of tekong felt like i was on some package holiday tour
seriously there was even a tour guide thing mann
saw qt a few ppl from hc(:
had lunch at the dining hall-feels like im eating at hall-even got song playing in the background
i felt like i was back at ke hall lol

shall go upload photos now(:

2009-01-02T14:27:00.003+08:00

too many things happening.
my mind's spinning.
for once in my life,i wish i could have time to myself to slack,pack and just not rush for dates/appointments/events/gatherings.
it's really too tiring.
sacrificing one for another isnt my style either
my calendar's been disgusting
i dont even have time to date my dear sister val :(
and sch's starting in a few days=s

on a happier note,
HAPPY 2009 everyone!
2008 wouldnt have been what it is without you guys
im proud of the new friendships ive made-my yp colleagues, my recruitexpress colleagues, my medicine OG mates, medicine classmates, medicine M2s and random friends everywhere, anytime!

the first half of 2008 wasnt well spent.
if given a chance, i wanna relive it all over again and do things differently.
there are too many things i regret doing, regret not doing, yet somehow im glad it turned out to be what it is because otherwise, i wouldnt have met my dearest TWIN(:, thipak and mark, the lovely girls from recruitexpress and my ex(who taught me some valuable life lessons)
i wished i had taken all the opportunities to go on overseas trip with my friends, follow my dad on business trips to see the world instead of staying cooped up in singapore
but maybe, if i did, i wouldnt have stayed at NUS for uni
a choice i dont regret

since july, everyday of my life has been fulfilling and satisfying
my life was jammed packed with activities and i chose to live by "play all you can, so you never regret" motto
i believed strongly that life's too short to be spent just studying, i study enough to do decent in school, but shopping, manicures/pedicures, dates (with sec sch clsmates/jc mates/og mates/friends/ex colleagues), going out with aloy, beach outings, iceskating, zoo trip, trampoline at hc, stunt practise with medicine ppl, dance etc became a large part of my life

life isnt always smooth sailing
but looking back,im glad of all those 'downs' cos it made me happy more easily when i learnt to appreciate all the blessings im fortunate to have
i wouldnt have made it through without aloy,whom i can always call to rant/whine/scream/cry;
the charlie angelz gang who loved me and cared for me so much i cant thank them enough;
and of cos, my twin, who was always there for me, and in some aspects where we're so different, she gave me fresh perspectives and helped me get through difficult times.

the struggles i went through earlier last year(2008) where i admittedly slipped into depression at times showed me the lowest points humans can face in their lifetime, but also proved that even the worst of situations and darkest of nights can blossom into a beautiful fairytale happy ending.

im not without troubles now, but compared to first half of 2008, these problems pale in comparison
im happy that im now a stronger person, more matured and sometimes, despite the trauma and breakdowns i went through then, im thankful it all happened and i remind myself it's a blessing in disguise

i believe in love
the most important thing in the world
that probably everyone wants
and
i feel very loved(:

im excited about 2009!
it's gonna be bigger, better filled with more love, fun and joy than before(:
remember that every single day that passes is precious
and always ask yourself, 'when i look back next time, what do i wanna say about my life'
we're only young once, let's make the best of it, make every day special, unique and worth remembering!

p.s. thanks to SABINA (medicine OG) for the lovely bear birthday present(:
i love the way its heart beats
suddenly i kinda like matthew/harvey

photos!

2008-12-19T11:23:00.002+08:00

photos (*click) of dinner last night!
with some camwhoring XD

i just realised i havent uploaded my guangzhou photos O_o
omg it has been MONTHS.
end sept till now =s
soon soon(:

some photos.

2008-12-18T13:03:00.003+08:00

way overdue photos(:
and no we did not just take 3pathetic photos-well it was 2 separate sentosa outings actually
posting the nicer ones
took quite a number of photos on the skyride but we look crappy haha

bridge to southernmost point of continental asia (or sth)

on a random note
I LOVE MY TWIN SAMANTHA!
nothing's more awesome than having her as a twin.

the day before tmr

2008-12-16T22:55:00.002+08:00

KL tmr

AMK hub
aloy and i had lunch at pepper lunch today
oh oh he bought me a dress and a pretty necklace from malacca heee

arcade(:
i swear we havent played in quite a while

the sand art thing
we did this nice butterfly design I SWEAR it's damn nice
it's those things that we all used to do as little kids but umm..yeah..haha
shall take a pic and post soon

pasir ris park!
cycled practically everywhere cos it's one hour for one hour for 5bucks-cheap(:
2hours is LONGG

fed ponies!!

and we spent alot of time at the playground-i love the alien spaceship spinning thing and the you cling on and fly around and the flying fox!
i was screaming for the flying fox cos aloy pushed me damnn fast(:
and he cant swing on the swings for nuts lol

wanted to go prawning.
but abit ex=/

took bus to white sands(:
BK dinner-save money:D
bought pretty earrings from watts in
and this snapple looking mini bottle lip balm!
and a damn cool lipstick-like lipgloss *feels proud of myself*

darling cabbed with me home
beautiful day man

*exhausted*

CAs are OVER

2008-12-16T01:41:00.002+08:00

i guess it's good.

maybe not.

today pretty much sucked.

physio SUCKS.

or maybe i just suck at it.

had a mental block during the mcqs and physio meq today-screwed up really

okay enough abt depressing issues..

my life still rocks(:

as usual.

because it has soo many wonderful friends i cant live without.

i love how i have many many close guy and girl friends.

best of both worlds(:

it's the hols

i need to start dating my darlings!

the holidays are just TOO SHORT REALLY.

i dont seem to have enough time to go out with everyone i wanna go out with!!

-date my cousin!who's way shy.dont ask me what's up with him,we're COUSINS

-my OG mates (hopefully)

-my DEAREST TWINNN!!(*must)

-CHARLIEZ ANGELZ XD (sleepover?must go out!)

-rachael dearie!

-miaoqin! (haha we wanted to since dunno when?)

-aloy of cos! (before he goes stinking army)

-sean!

-yong!

-my gor ck!

-06s75 xmas party?(:

-valerie!!!

-MAD outing-dunno if i can make it

-okay i really dunno who else i promised dates to but anyway those above are in NO SPECIFIC ORDER of priority or whatsoever.

diee-no time X(

anw luged and skyrided with aloy at sentosa a few weeks ago

HAHA DAMN FUN.

i dropped my slipper into the 'forest' below

but it's damn exciting!!

GO TRY-they'll find your slipper anyway(: (:

and i always somehow seem to go super damn fast on the luge HAHA.

and i cant remember what else to say-so much happens every single day,every single moment

my life sometimes feels like those dramas on tv or sth-REALLY.

it's like one moment can be super damn high,then another a depressing moment.

im on a crazy roller coaster ride every single day it's tiring-yet enjoyable(:

ahh cant rem what else happened in the many days i didnt blog, except that if i blogged it all down,day by day,it'll be too much.

my equilibrium's messed

i never saw it coming

too stressful

too uncertain

too draining

surreality;

i can never study on weekends

2008-11-30T22:07:00.002+08:00

i can never study on weekends.
whick sucks really.

anw the week was good.
i was relatively productive in studies.
more productive playing though=x

met aloy's twin sisters and little brother on sat
im proud to say my boyfriend's good with kids(:
which makes me happy(:

went to eat katong laksa for lunch today
since we had to go my cousin's house tt's opposite parkway
i hate laksa
i dunno why but i just cant stand the taste
now i remember why i havent ate laksa for many years haha

im gonna meet my twin on thursday!
cant wait(:
and take the skyride and luge with aloy=)

dont remind me my ca's coming=/

holidays?nahh

2008-11-25T21:48:00.003+08:00

west mall from 1230 to 4 yesterday
macs supper at engin at 10+pm

out with my cousins and extended family from 130-930 today.
ps arcade.
NEOPRINTS(:
my cousin's condo seaview
dinner at east coast no signboard seafood
cousin camwhoring!

i still wanna go for tramp tmr
oh gosh
maybe thurs

in case you're wondering if im on holiday,
im not

im supposed to be mugging my hearts out-.-

the neoprints!
click to enlarge
there's more but these are the 'bigger' ones

cousin power(:
SHADOWS

cousins <3

triplets(:

im fortunate to be close to my cousins(:
cousins forever<3

my week

2008-11-24T00:33:00.002+08:00

my week
was great

it was pissifying to find out you have practical on the long-awaited day you plan to hit escape and downtown east with someone you miss and want to catch up badly with.

no it's a 'she'.

and no im not les.

the week was great.
i studied.
i played.
well okay, played more
watched tropic thunder with aloy
it was DAMN FUNNYY-the stupid kind of funny(:

street bball

trampoline training at hwachong

STUNTS on wed(:
i love cheerleading stunts really(:
it's FUN

watching aloy play soccer on fri
cycling at sentosa with aloy on sat
bro's bday todayy=)
my weekend was busy

but as always,
im loving my life(:

maybe it's just me
but does anyone else has a soft spot for disabled people or old people?
seeing them always makes me broke
literally.

depressing

2008-11-16T10:44:00.003+08:00

im feeling inferior.
i just realised that if i were single,i'd be freaking depressed cos no guy would ever want me.
i dont think any guy would date me/ask me out/be interested in me in any way.
dont ask me why im feeling this way.
shit this is way depressing.
im feeling lousy.

2008-11-13T09:58:00.002+08:00

trying to study
really really trying

with a fair share of playing(:

daddy's coming back this saturday!(:

cos my heart is wherever you are;

another PLAY week

2008-11-09T17:02:00.003+08:00

honestly, i can play my life away
except that i would run out of money:(

im SICKK
this sucks.
which explains pathetic wednesday where i spent the day sleeeping.
didnt work cos thurs i was still sick
after ethics at 4, i went to meet billy lim(for the last time this year,sadly)
156 to my grandma's house is a reallyyy long journey
havent had dinner at grandma's for a really long time the curry fish tasted soo good
my aunts fetched me back abt 9+, and they came to visit my room(:
had a nice talk with christine that night

friday was great
tutorial ended at 1
i met aloy and we had lunch at sakae at cck
he accompanied me down the red then green line to outram
watched 007 Quantum of Solace 425 at VIVO with my OG
boat chase,car chase,plane chase,bond girl pretty much sums it all(:
dinner at fig. and olive with my aunts
then shopping at Pet Lovers and Daiso
got a lift back to pgp at abt 10

saturday
i just spent the day at his house
like afternoon till night
oh before that we ate at swensen's
and played at arcade for a short while(:
his hamsters are really cuuttee *loves*

sunday
spent time with mum and bro at cck(why am i always there man-.-)
there's nth there reallyy
we were there cos mummy and bro hasn't gone there in years

blue hair extensions!
clean shiny nails!

things i wanna do asap!
*cycle at UBIN again(on a weekday please i wanna avoid the crowd)
*a day at SENTOSA-sun,sand and sea
*wildwildwet or the jurong swimming complex
*downtown east-havent been there in years
*cycling/rollerblading at pasir ris/east coast park at night and of cos going to the PLAYGROUND
*iceskating!
*bowling(though i cant bowl for nuts and would absolutely go longkang every single time-dont laugh)
*arcade-i like street bball cos it's good workout for my arms

DATE ME if you wanna do any of the above(:
i would love you very much for it:D

PAMPER(:

2008-11-04T22:16:00.002+08:00

so while some hardcore muggers already started intensive mugging routine for the next CAs on 15dec
christine and i were playing our hearts out
i met rachael at jurong point yesterday and as usual,my dearie sweetest(pardon my language,i think it's her influence) had a good talk over dinner and then more talk as we hit the mall shops.
i bought a pair of shoes, 2 tops and a gift for someone:D
shopping IS therapeutic!
reached back pgp at about 1045-dear babe christine walked me back from the scary bus stop(:
of cos,she spent the day out too=)
coincidentally,both of us were on the phone till 2am!(:

today, the CHARLIEZ ANGELZ(exclud DC) had a pamper-ourselves day at AMK
met billy lim at bishan library
long journey back to nus
went to mr bean at nuh for tea
met christine's bro to retrieve her wallet(:

horrible evening
but my dearest girl cheered me up with dinner at munchie monkey's
i love how i can tell her anything and everything and not be judged(:
love you too babe
i had a lovely time with you

it's 10+ now and of cos im slacking and ignoring the hw and piling stuff i gotta do
im gonna watch garfield movie for a short while on dvd(it's either that or GARFIELD 2)
which actually makes no choice at all haha

and tomorrow i promise i'll do some work(:

balanced life
i play and mug
i need that sort of life

to be unaffected by the peer mugging pressure
it's just not worth wasting my life mugging every day
it's a waste of my youth, my life.

the reality of being in medicine;

i love pampering myself

2008-11-02T20:52:00.002+08:00

did i tell you how i LOVE pampering myself?
it's sucha materialistic bad habit i ought to kick,but it simply makes me soo happy
so today i had my haircut at jeanyip.which was a little pricey for me.
but that awesome lingering smell of shampoo made it worth it.
my long delayed pedicure-sitting in that armchair being waited on just feels great(:

watched high school musical with ivan and wahtoon today.
it was either that or coffin-.-
wahtoon gives me horrible choices.
when he called at 11am this morning to inform me of the movie choices, it made a nice morning call
ding tai fung was pretty yummyy.
but then again, with crystal jade and imperial treasure within the last week or so,it wasn't exactly tempting.
so here i am, at hostel, thinking about last night where i mood swinged and suddenly cried at the thought of my dad going for a business trip for a couple of wks in US and UK.
at the frequency my dad travels, you'd have thought i'd have gotten used to it.
but im gonna miss my dad,who flew off this morning.
i really love him soo much.

last wk was great.
slack timetable.
2hrs on tues n 1hr of sch on wed.
can it get any better?(:
so last wk was movie-watch nights of rodanthe(prob wrong spelling), shopping, staying over at ****'s house, lovely days really.
1nov-the dreaded piano exam
which turned out alright i suppose
then the mad rush to ucc to catch playhouse 2008.
the m4 play was delightful and funny.
ours was complicated.
full of underlying meaning.
but yunsong was amazing-he'd make a good joker(as in batman)

tonight i gotta mark MORE scripts
my last batch
then copy hanxin's notes cos i fell asleep in lecture.
and then..
it's prob too late then to do anything else.

i know i love you more than i think i do

POST CAs

2008-10-26T13:28:00.004+08:00

CAs are finally over!(:
you know the funny thing is,it's not the exams im really stressed abt.
it's the people.
i swear,i never felt like tt in hc-the first time in my life i felt soo suffocated by the ppl arnd me.
maybe it's good that i went to hc and not rj
nth against rj though.
i guess it's good that the peer pressure motivates me
if not i'd be screwed.
and stress in a way gives me strength when i feel like giving up(:
ah well,good and bad

anyway,it feels good to be able to blog again.
to slack around,to just laze in bed and not feel guilty
to not get so worked up when i lose a few hours just doing nth when i cld have studied..
so in between those mugging days, be it at the study room or in my pgp room, i took time out to date and chill with aloy.
and though everytime i'd feel guilty tt im not studying,it was therapeutic
cos i honestly cannot study straight 5days or sth with no life(going out etc)

had dance yest(:
then lunch and hanging out for a short while with aloy
before my date with my twin at amk
it is seriously nice to have a twin who has the same name as you(not uncommon, i know)
but for her to be your size,your weight
for us to be able to share same clothes,with same shoe size
i think it's one of the coolest things of earth
and the best part is that as twins, we are completely opposite at times
but yet share alot of things in common.
thanks for going out with me sam(:
i love you!

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=91524080272
i miss modern dance:(

the mugging week

2008-10-12T19:42:00.004+08:00

this week is MUGGING WEEK
im cooped up in the study room with christine,daichao,hanxin and once mingsheng studying all day.
on day 3,i was ready to kill myself.
but as ming sheng said, people have been doing this for the past month.
no-life people

anywayy,had STUNTS on thurs again
but im still hurting so i kept flopping=/ esp during popping.
i totally had no focus-and i kept crashing onto people-samuel,shane,jeanne..
that made me totally pissed at myself
so i was in a bad mood for dinner.

dance on saturday cheered me up though(:
met my twin,reihorng and val at orchard.
sam i think we make great twins
seriously, we are totally opposites yet share alot in commmon(:

met aloy at night(:
we walked arnd cine
i bought a top!
and we played arcade(:
but there no bball=(
then we watched this movie that was um.cartoonish chinese thing
damn funny cos aloy told me it's an action movie with REAL PEOPLE.
then when it turned out to be a cartoon i was way amused:D
but it costed 10bucks for the movie ticket so it was such a waste of money-.-
oh oh aloy bought me a famous amos cookie box!that is DAMN NICEE
i gotta upload a photo of it someday!

shit.tmr's mon=another mugging week=sian.
i just wish CA would be over.
this studying thing is killing me so badly.

every day is a happy day

2008-10-02T21:42:00.002+08:00

im loving life(:
friday to sunday in guangzhou was satisfying.
i like taking planes-for some reason.
it was more a visit relative trip than a sightseeing and shopping trip.
but the humongous classy hotel room shared by my cousin and i with the giant bed and pillows and big big toilet,together with the short but rewarding shopping trip,not to mention the oh-so-GOOD food we have every meal in high class places in private rooms made the trip GREAT(:

i declare SHOPPING the thing i love most(: (:

monday was a pretty long day.classes till 4=(
cant rem what i did that day

tues! i ended anat prac at abt 12
ate at science
got a lift frm sharon to peace center-where i bought my piano bks
cabbed down to billy lim's at bishan
where wahtoon met me to return me shueli's stuff-he said he wasnt going airport to send her
then i cabbed back to pgp
marked some scripts
went for vcf
went out to ps till like 3am!haha

wed-woke up at 9+
to meet aloy at 1pm at cityhall mrt
had hongkong cafe for lunch-not good=/
walked around(:
we were both shivering like mad ppl haha.
ARCADE-we're getting pro at bishi bashi haha.
walked arnd.then back to pgp(:
had dinner at pgp foodcourt at abt 8
met val and the three of us took bus then train
darling accompanied us to bugis(: instead of dropping at outram=D
CHANGI AIRPORT IS SUPER FARR!

felt good being at terminal 3 again after 3days(:
ate at ya kun.sent shueli off=(
then yong,soph,siyun,val and i took the train back
LONG JOURNEY
got back at like 12+ -.- haha
DID NOT STUDY AT ALL TODAY *slaps myself*

THURS
sharon n i were late for pbl for ONE HOUR
cos we were too hungry to chiong down oops:D
not our fault lor,pbl supposed to be at 2 n we didnt know change to 11 for our grp
so i was sleeping in my room and sharon was studying on my desk

overslept in the aft (1+-3+)
went for random stunt day 3 with the rag people(:
CHEERLEADING STUNTS!!

must thank juliana! for being a great teacher who was ever so patient with me-i keep forgetting to lock when im in the air.
i learnt simple ones today,since it's my first time(:
I LOVE CHEERLEADING STUNTS haha
until 6+
got back pgp at 7
basically,I LOVE SCHOOL
but i hate studying.
:D
tmr is FLOORBALL i THINK.
exercise is good!
and DANCE on sat
recruitexpress outing this sat(:
meet sam and reihorng on sun

and this is the life;
im loving it

2008-09-23T22:10:00.007+08:00

for the first time in a long long time,my week is gonna be not as exciting or action-packed because...
samantha has decided to be a MUGGER for 2 whole days!

cos mon i was feeling giddy
on account of my monthly crisis
so i SLEPT my day away
besides going to novena to check out my skeleton
and watching the finale of the channel 8 7pm show
and part of charlie's angels
amazingly,i managed to mug ALITTLE before i had to do like 2 papers of theory
which is way timeconsuming if you didnt know
or maybe cos im slow

TUES!
piano lesson in the morn
went out right after that for cityhall to meet my beloved(:
we went to get my wallet first,then mph-i dont get why my dear loves books so much haha

lunch at shokudo, raffles city
marche style jap restaurant
where i saw han long,sandra,carmen and resh!haha fellow medicine ppl(:

ARCADE at ps
pardon the bball addicts:D
we hit 666 today-COOL NUMBER RIGHT!
i think we're qt pro honestly hehe
auntie anne's cinammon sugar pretzel was calling for me!
the passion fruit juice is pretty heavenly too.
comics connection!where i bought myself a COOL BRACELET.
and aloy bought me Q Q tang3(sweet)-it's such a yummy sweet honestly:D
um and then we walked arnd here and there

VIVO skypark
to chill
and JUMPSHOTS!
lotsa them!
and SWEET PHOTOS TOO(: awww
there's one of aloy carrying me!

pet safari.adidas shop.walking around..
then dinner at SUPERDOG
darling says the ripper i recommended is good!

we took lots of photos today!!that i created an album for it!haha!

okay as i was saying,tmr and thurs is officially FULL MUGGING DAYS
the thought of it is enough to kill me
haha
and friday im going GUANGZHOU!YAYYYY.
then sch starts again.bleh i hate early days!
BUT wed is PUB HOL!cant wait(:

okay finallyyy the PHOTOS!(click!)

MY LOVELYY WEEK

2008-09-22T00:01:00.004+08:00

http://www.new.facebook.com/album.php?aid=40940&l=39eaa&id=608996988

mon!
SOUP SPOON with sharon at raffles place!
cervical cancer injection at republic plaza(sharon accompanied me)
shop for dc's present
um kinda,sharon and i shopped for our own stuff too HAHA
chris,leon and kaikok joined us at topshop
shopped till 7!
rush to meet toon at jurong east mrt!
pedicure at westmall
back to home sweet pgp(:

TUES!
vcf
and i slept ALOT

WED!
late for sch
2 lects cancelled-thanks ahh-.-
CELEBRATE DC'S BIRTHDAY!!
2hrs break
15 ppl to vivo during break
the power of CARS-yohanes,barry and lucy(:
MARCHE(:
rush back to sch and was late for histo prac
left halfway cos too lazy to look at slides HAHA
spinelli!!
CLINICALS at nuh-interacting with patients!

rush to meet DEAREST RACHAEL
SAKAE at westmall!
manicure
until almost 10
rachael prob loves me the most haha
she always goes i love you dearie alot :)
i love you too babe!!thanks for the lovely animated talk that day!

THURS 1pm off sch
out with ALOY
VIVO
MARCHE!
ARCADE!
came over to pgp till 11+pm
had dinner at supper house
i just love you dear!

FRI!
piano hw
piano lesson
slacckk

SAT
11-1230 modern jazz at nus!
lunch with modern jazz ppl
rush,bathe at pgp

SAMANTHA LOH at clarke quay
the FASHION BAR! kotex party
um i got makeup done by some maybelline lady
pigged out on sandwiches,tons of chocolate eclairs,dessert,drinks etc HAHA
camwhoring!
goodie bag=)

ALOY at PS!
no photos=(
our bball score at arcade was 600+ PRO RIIGGHHTT
another one of those bad moody days=s
but you know i still love you dear(:
1145 home!
FINALLY

SUN!
SHUE n YINGCHERN'S FAREWELL at CLAIRE'S HOUSE!
06S75 gathering!!(:
lots of camwhoring!
GOOD FOOD-otah and claire's shepherd's pie and chicken wings
it was fun rushing the scrapboook, keeping shueli distracted haha
i just love our class(:
miss all of you guys!!

haha and the lovely surprise where we blindfolded them n made them do stupid things like bounce on the tramp 10times, and feed them strawberry marshmallow cake, and presented them their gifts and SCRAPBOOK(: with notes and lotsa photos!
lotsa hugs
LOTSA PHOTOS
GO MY FACEBOOK SEEEE!
here's the link

http://www.new.facebook.com/album.php?aid=40940&l=39eaa&id=608996988

GO SEEEE K!!(:

2008-09-14T12:02:00.002+08:00

i realise im blogging in weeks now-.-
cos i hardly on my com during the wkdays, or maybe im just too lazy to blog:D
well this week has been..
deceiving.

on the surface, it may feel like i've accomplished alot-fun time in sch
swensen's with jamie and shopping at holland v
clinicals
shopping at orchard on thurs and og at novena
mooncake festival at pgp with KE hall and pgp medicine ppl
going to christine's room to have supper
going to aloy's house to visit him(:
having yummy fish head curry for dinner
wearing RJ uniform on friday (designated uniform day for whole of medicine)
taking lotsa cool photos!
barry's bday
midautumn lantern carrying at jacob ballas children's garden

BUT
beneath all that amazing stuff that filled my week prettily
it was a horrible week
i dont wanna say more

photos are all on facebook as usual
i'll try to upload all my photos for this week asap(:

I LOVE HC

2008-09-07T15:30:00.004+08:00

PHOTOS for 6SEPT ON THE LEFT!

the slackiest week in sch!
mon
we went shopping for lucy's present(:
sakae buffet! at wheelock

tues
went for vcf talk

wed
ended lect at 1030am
celebrate andrew and lucy's birthday!
shopping with hanxin and dc in town
WALL E with hanxin, dc, barry and perry
aloy came over to pgp
watched him play bball with his exroomie
slack arnd,bathe
dinner and constantine!
visit his exroomie at 1am
supper at fong seng till like 4am

thurs
slacked.studied(tried to:D)
aloy stayed the day till after dinner(:

fri!
lunch at vivo superdog with hanxin,dc,chris and lucy
napp

SAT!
SMEC(student medical education conference) from 9-1+
lunch provided(I LOVE the PRAWNS!) till 2+
cabbed down to hc
watched aloy and his team play street soccer all the way till finals
they got SECOND(:
but the j1s were good-they totally deserved first
except that i still hate samuel tan-im allergic to bullshit, esp ARROGANT bullshit
7-cabbed to lucy's party at the carribean clubhouse
it was really classyy:D

810pm-cabbed back to hc for MAF
camwhored!
hc songs are the BEST BEST BEST on earth!
with 05s75 and 06s75 people-i think like EVERYONE was there:D haha
mass dance-haha not so niceee.
chatted with people..
left hc at nearly 11(:
i totally love it when we jump and dance and get high and scream and shout our lungs out!

HWACHONG is the most fabulous place on earth
in medicine,60% are frm rj-that i started to think rj was a better place to be
but MAF last night proved me way WRONG
hc will always be the LOVE OF MY LIFE
and im SO PROUD again to be from there
the hwachong family spirit burns like a fiery flame so strong you can NEVER extinguish it
so yes,im happy i went to hc
no regrets.
if i didnt,i would have missed out on all the lovely lovely people there
the most wonderful people i can ever meet(:
so friendly,so warm,so loving
that's hc for you:)

yet another fulfilling week

2008-08-31T14:30:00.002+08:00

medicine dinner and dance was A BLAST
awesome!with the many many spectacular costumes and brilliant ogs
could only camwhore for like 30mins before my cam batt totally died on me-.-
so now i gotta find everyone else for photos!esp sharon(:
reuben who came as the nurse complete with the blond wig and makeup(joker in dark knight) was WOW-he totally deserved prom QUEEEN
our king and queen were both GUYS.haha oh well
went over to tiff's hse to get ready.
then lucy drove us girls to hilton
where we camwhored alot on the 2nd floor
and more on the 3rd floor
my cam died like after we just entered the ballroom-.-
but i took photos with loads of cool random ppl
making many more new friends(:
I LOVE MEDICINE
oh did i mention my dear councillor gave me ben and jerry's vouchers and gelare vouchers?:D
YAYYY!
photos on facebook click here!!

the week was..
-suppers twice with val where we walked frm pgp at 11pm to fong seng and reach back at abt 1am
-supper with aloy on wed at supper house(:
-school was FUN-lessons were enjoyable!
-pbp at nuh emergency dept was eyeopening
-dinner with aloy at science canteen was a cool experience
-horrid cos i was emo-ing alot for some unknown reason-a depressing waste of time
-touring the sch on fri to engin,arts and business
-so enjoyable I'M LOVING MY LIFE(:(:

cant wait for next week because
there are quite a few people's birthdays coming up!
im meeting recruitexpress ppl trudy and emily to catch up=)
aloy and i may go to night safari:D and have late supper at fong seng together hehe
thursday there's no sch=party on wed night
we end pretty early next week
my og prob have many funky stuff to do(as always)

im LOVING it

2008-08-24T18:54:00.005+08:00

can i say how much I LOVE MED SCH?
let's see..
mon i went shopping with jamie at bugis right after sch at abt 4 till like 9 at night

tues i went to listen to pip's and mayank's superstar auditions at the arts house
catching another m1 and an m2's how to save a life guitar duet
dinner at megabites then mcf till 9+

wed after sch i left straight for town
met recruitexpress people at cityhall mrt for dinner(:
shokudo at raffles city!
all my hot girlfriends and guyfriends haha
catching up,laughing,pigging out..
cant wait to meet them again!(:

thurs after sch went to pgp to take notes/presents..
took A2,92 to bv,EW line to outram,NEL to boonkeng,133 to aloy's hse busstop,walked in
arduous journey man haha.
but it's all worth it for my dearie aloy(:
had roti prata dinner at the coffeeshop nearby
sat and talked along the roadside
cabbed back at 10+

friday i ponned lectures in the aft!
so i ended at 11+ :D
we were watching olympics in lecture so the morn lects not well spent too lol
played pictionary with my funky OG during lunch break
hanxin and dc came over to my room at 2+
hanxin and i napped on my bed while dc used the com
played FLOORBALL WITH MY OG at mpsh6!
some m2 joined.bensoh too.
haha it was DAMNNN FUNN.
there was only 2girls-.- me and tiff
and 10+ guys-pip,leon,andrew,weiping,barry,chris,wenjie,yunsong,daichao,m2 daniel..
it was AWESOME.what with the many funny injuries where we had to pause game cos we were laughing too hard:D
poor penguin fell like twice haha.
i had a great time
waited like 30mins for A2 though-.- christine was there too:)
went back to pgp,packed,dad picked me up and we reached home after an hr-horrible traffic
i down my curry noodles as fast as i can.
rushed piano hw.
had theory lesson.
watched ghost whisperer
planned sat's events

SAT-our little og adventure-does bali lane exist?
supposed to meet at 10am at bugis(but i cant wake up,expectedly)
met leon,daichao,kaikok at plaza sing where they waited for me while i did the kotex roadshow take-a-photo thing(got a free goodie bag:):)
had lunch at carl's jnr and chris joined us
met YINGYIYI=D
then the 5 of us went shopping for presents for upcoming ogmates' bdays
sharon and lucy joined us
shop shop(i shall spare you the details haha)
then we went to look for bali lane for the costume shop!
it's AMAZING-soo many costumes!
after browsing for a long time,we walked arnd nearby-cldnt go far cos it was raining.
before deciding to go to coffee bean at raffles hospital to chill
then aloy picked me at the taxi stand outside raffles hospital and we went to bugis
we went window shopping!haha
then dinner at ajitei
NEOPRINT!
more walking
supper at J.Co
then we went home
darling took a detour and went with me to toapayoh even though he had a direct bus home from bugis:)

okay i'll upload my photos for the week on both photobucket and facebook SOON:)
sorry this laptop of mine at home doesnt have a sd reader-.-
gotta go back pgp and use my toshiba tablet to do it:)

*every single day is jampacked with activities
i'm leading a fulfilling life
and enjoying every single moment of it
lectures where we slack, talk, copy notes, watch olympics, eat, laugh out loud or just pon
lunchtimes where we eat with our m2s in the og
6ppl sharing 4 seats(mcd style seats)
long lunch breaks where we kope seminar room MsthC as an OG and blast music play cards,pictionary etc
meeting my darlings
catching up with friends from outside
IM LOVING MY LIFE.
every single moment of it:)
it's PERFECT

**must show you the neoprints of me and my darling aloy!!
and our camwhoring in the mrt!:D

2008-08-19T23:27:00.002+08:00

i realised i havent been blogging for more than a week
it's been so busy.
im never back 'home' before nightfall
everyday after school there's bound to be sth on.
be it going out with my darling(: , with my dearies, with my funloving og, random people arnd, catching up with old schmates, cca stuff, mcf..
im soo lazy i havent uploaded photos of MAD gathering at meiling's hse on facebook, nor those of RAG DAY tt alicia specificially asked me, nor those of hanxin's bday, OG outing to sentosa and so many many more i cant rem!

sch's AWESOME(:
im having loads of fun everyday!
or maybe it's just my funky og where we're still partying everyday haha.
we hang out everyday after sch
and there's og floorball this friday
so despite our horrible 830-4 schedule, which is late enough, we dont chiong home like some people but chill in sch and just indulge in each other's company talking nonsense or in this friday's case, keep fit by playing floorball together

okay maybe my darling aloy's sweet words are making me high lol.

im still considering cheerleading
but i'll def go for ballroom dancing(:

i think love is when you find it impossible to not forgive a person no matter how much horrible stuff have happened.
it amazes me to see the power of love,
its sheer power to make 2 people able to give each other chance after chance,
never giving up,
never saying die,
never saying 'we're not gonna make it'
because deep down in your hearts, you both want to make it right so badly everytime something goes wrong, you find it in yourself to say, 'it's okay,it will get better.we'll do it'
love makes you optimistic, because you believe in not just yourself but your partner too.
and maybe going through tough times are blessings in disguise cos like they always say, what doesnt kill you makes you stronger.
and though many times i've felt like im dying and i cant take it anymore and i wanna give up,im glad we made it through in the end
so thanks for coming into my life and no matter what happens, im not worrying cos i know you'll be there every step of the way,
holding my hand.

and together,
we'll make miracles(:

UNI LIFE

2008-08-12T20:59:00.002+08:00

sch has officially started.
whitecoat ceremony that was short and sweet
cohort photo in our labcoats.
lunch at megabites where the tropical hawaiian was cheesy enough to make me happy
lectures from 2-6 w breaks in between w tea reception included.
2 tea receptions in a day.
dinner with my dear og at the science canteen
and chatting for like 2hours there.
valerie coming over for some girl talk
melvin trying to surprise me at pgp but failed
cooking egg soup with chicken stock and eating at jamie's room

today where lectures officially started
830-930 lecture.then break till 11
11-1 lecture(supposedly) but it ended at 1145-giving us a 2hr plus break
2-4 ethics lecture(sleeepy alr)
laughter during lecture
lunch at pgp food court
15 ppl cramming into my tiny room at pgp(can you just imagine!)
talking laughing niao-ing me abt the magiclean(internal)

meeting aloy at clementi
had dinner at the hawker there(:
the fried wanton was nice
then shopping for basic tees..
that little incident at the couch outside the changing rooms at Giordano was unexpected but soo sweet(:

daddy just popped by to give me money for books,dinner and dance,printing and misc..
i lovee my daddyyy*hugs*
it's 9pm but i think im gonna sleep.
too tired.

2008-08-10T22:43:00.004+08:00

SATURDAY
met aloy to iceskate
from like 3-5
played arcade(:
dinner at macs
then we sat to talk on some metal stairs
before i had to go eunos mrt so my parents cld pick me up to go to my 3rd aunt's hse outside Parkway Parade
it's a condo called seaview-SUPER NICEE
more like a resort than a condo
even the lift lobby is aircon i tell you
and there's an olympic sized swimming pool
in addition to the giant pretty one.
i feel like im on some island in msia haha
stayed there till 1+ am

us!=)

my dearie backface

:D

me backface..

YUEQI dear shueli and me

alicia and me
(she says she's a cobra lol)

RAG on friday(:
chris and lucy are the dark forces!

the random few of us after rag heading down to vivo
we had such a good laugh at kfc luh=)
before i had to go at like 4pm back to PGP to do my dreaded piano hw=(

the two band majors and me haha

JIE after rag
friday was HER BIRTHDAY(:

out with rachael dearie on thurs!
i just love shopping and all the girl stuff we have
thanks for the hours and hours worth of lovely time we had(:
this was just before i took 67 to hwachong to meet aloy(:

thanks for saturday(:
for sharing what you had to say
we're meant to be
right from day one:)

cos you redefine love;

2008-08-06T22:51:00.005+08:00

SENTOSA 6AUG

after captain's ball in the sea! at abt 530?

after we played bball for a while earlier in the aft(:

haha again(:

at delifrance with sup,kaikok,pauline and me

fortune telling!

after capt ball in the sea!

FLAG DAY 5AUG

FLAG DAY

sup and wenjie!
with the airport -like trolley

BASKING
omg,
haha.

CHRIS/BARRY'S HOUSE 2AUG

at barry's hse!

booze game!

everyone scrambling to be in the photo haha
and daichao doing an obscene pose:D

FAMILYYY PHOTO!!

the og mass outing starting frm barry's hse that we soon abandoned for the booze game

uploaded only selected photos
we had very few pics at sentosa cos we were playing too much to take photo haha
flag day also not alot
the group photo is in someone else's cam..
barry's hse other ppl's cam got more on facebook(:

my week ZERO

2008-08-06T22:06:00.002+08:00

MONDAY
morn-pack stuff
aft-move in to pgp!with jamie and sheue ying's help!they damn on la
i reach they go downstairs help me bring up almost all my stuff(jamie n i same floor)
then after mum n dad help me put the bedsheets/comforters n left,they help me clean my room and do the checklist properly!=)
5pm-met aloy (he offered to help me buy fbts)but no more stock=(
we walked arnd-went watsons to buy dove conditioner n lux body wash
then darling surprised me=)
he gave me the white and gold adidas jacket!!95bucks lehh!
cos on his bday,i saw it(yes im slow) then i said i want.
then last fri i ask him help me check the price at the cathay since he was at ps but he didnt,then i was like zzz.
haha he said he didnt check cos he alr bought it:D
lovee(:
dinner at sakae sushi!
at night jamie and i slacked at her room
ate tuna(from the can) and my bonjour bread-make her room smell like tuna la haha
then IVY LEOW came over!!haha.
then we went over to ivy leow's room at blk 22.
cant believe there are 3 413 ppl in pgp(:

tues-FLAG DAY
we just slacked.
hanxin me sharon and daichao went shopping with the m2s instead
went topshop,aldo,ted baker,pull and bear etc and we went to try clothes(:
had lunch at kopitiam w the rest of the og
then wanted to watch movie but the timings all not good sian.
so we shopped somemore.lol.
we tried to ask ppl for donation but sharon n i got rejected alot-donated alr etc.which is why we gave up and put our own money in=.=
sup tiffany pauline yunsong wenjie and i-forgot-who went to BASK la-and ppl actually donated-so cool right!
slacked alot at the busstop pasting the flag day stickers on everyone and taking photos too(:
5+ - went over to meet aloy again(:

and last night jamie helped me set up the internet connection!
we slacked at her room again.hee.
and she came over too(:
msn-ed till like 1+ when the og mass convo ended with the hearts thing haha then cldnt take it alr so i slept

WED-SENTOSA WITH MY OG
we were supposed to meet at harbourfront macs at 930
only kaikok reached on time!
i got up at 10+,reached siloso at abt 1230
had lunch with daichao,barry,hanxin and pauline at delifrance!
then all of us played bball(3 v 3) at the bball 'court'
after a while,some ns ocs guys joined us for bball
quite coool=)-sup was damn pro laa

read fortunes for awhile using a deck of cards-it's hilarious la!
bought drinks
m2s arrived-melvin weiping shiyun youmin perry rebecca
we played volleyball-i absolutely cannot serve=( sadly
halfway,i went to join sup and daichao for bball again with some ns guys
they were nicee to me la-which made it kinda dumb cos they were purposely pass ball to me and let me take a shot etc=.=
but they gave me pointers on how to shoot better too haha.always hit the rim then nvr go in argh.

played CAPTAIN'S BALL IN THE SEA
it was DAMN SHIOK
even the tourists started taking photos of us!!
REALLYY!
it was 5 v 6
FUNNN=)
wont say the details but it was extremely enjoyable(:
and i noticed qt a number of ppl watching us play haha
we played for qt awhile
they even resolved to rugby style captain's ball
got tackling one haha

went back to our 'shack' and fortune-telling again
it's fun cos we all laughed soo much frm it!
then went to bathe
took the bus back to vivo
on the bus i keep getting niao-ed la
cos i say weiping look like penguin
then he say i look like the flea in spongebob-wth
then melvin,perry and weiping all started calling me the 5-year-old girl=.=
but HAHA now melvin calls weiping penguin!
had dinner at the hawker centre at vivo bus interchange
they wanted to go coffee bean chill and continue the fortune telling thing again but i wanted to leave to meet val(:

tmr-lunch w rachael?shopping with jamie?

fri-rag!

*im exhausted

from thurs to sun

2008-08-03T23:55:00.002+08:00

some 10dollar ktv thing on thurs
smith street,chinatown
met hanxin at the mrt
we ate ice kachang first cos weiping said they havent paid
then we went in and the guy say after 15mins it's chargeable-.-
so aft 15mins we left
and went to sri mariammam(argh how do you spell it!) temple and pretended to be tourists going in and taking photos HAHA
walked around then saw weiping's msg telling us to go back n they'll just argue w the guy if he ask us to pay(:
MY OG PPL ROCK=)
haha both m2s and m1s!
like when everyone sang together for peng you and hotel california..
and the best thing is that people arent shy
they sing pretty loudly!(:

fri-my dear sister michelle's birthday
had lunch at sakae with my grandpa and bro
we went shopping for my sis's present!
then ordered a cake for her and went home
spent the rest of the day pia-ing piano hw(what a loser-ish way to spend a fri=(
piano 8pm-9pm
i never miss ghost whisperer at 10pm(:

sat
signing of the medicine bond at moh
we were there at 11am-waited for like one n a half hours-.-
lunch at ppl's park with my family and grandpa
we had that YUMMYY fried dumpling!
if you havent tried it,GO TRY-it's some tian fong kee or sth

met hanxin,daichao and kaikok at outram mrt
took the train to kembangan where chris met us and walked us to his hse
sharon,leon n ben were alr there
then we played xbox,psp and citadel
cos it was too SWELTERING HOT to go ecp
the m2s came over at arnd 5+
then we all walked over to barry's house which was just a few mins away frm chris's hse
the caterer had NICE food.honestly.the curry,eclairs,pineapple rice,veg,prawn egg thing and fried fish thing was reallyy nice(:
and lucy baked a delicious orange chocolate cake with strawberries on top
we sat in barry's garden on chairs for dinner
then talked,camwhored,laugh over stupid stuff..
we took a mass outing for awhile
then decided against it and went back to barry's house where we sat in a circle-27 out of 31 of my og ppl turned up(:
and played furve.some booze game
the entree drink was either whiskey or a mixed vodka
i took a whiff of the whiskey and nearly died-i hate alcohol really.
but the booze game was FUN!!
everyone had to have a cup.
mine was like sprite with ice and alittle mango vodka(cos they insisted we all take-.-)
too lazy to describe the rules and everything but basically you have a deck of cards and everyone draws-all the cards mean sth.
and you cant say the word 'drink' or say someone's name or point or you'd have to drink
so for the night i was '153' or 'dyed hair girl' haha
left with samuel and yohanes at 11pm
they kept scaring me when we were walking out luh!
but haha they said really silly stuff sometimes that even a noob like me knew it isnt true
sadly, daddy decided not to fetch me-_-
i took the train from kembangan to jurong east.
then jurong east to woodlands.
so i got home at 1240am.tireedd.

our og prob has the MOST PHOTOS taken
cos we have camwhores like hulin and everyone else
but really every time we gather hulin takes lots of pics!
we had alot of JUMP pics on sat!like on the road,or just outside barry's hse etc
like we're all mass walking then hulin turns arnd and ask all of us to jump HAHA
we've qt a few FAMILY photos(m1s and m2s)
ALL OF US are really CAMWHORES
but hey!that's why it's so fun(:
i loveee my og
promise to upload the photos soon!

sun-slept a lot
basically spent the day packing stuff cos im moving in tmr
arnd lunchtime
ohh my og's ponning the fic tmr:D
so it's a free day heh

wildwildwet!

2008-07-30T22:59:00.007+08:00

it's my third time at wildwildwet in 3mths
and in case you're wondering, no it isnt the most exciting or thrilling place on earth
but in a small place like singapore,we try to make do with what we have
im not a movie-shop-eat-walk arnd for dates with my bf kind of girl
im more the let's-do-that-and-much-more-like-try-everything sort
like cycling,swimming,iceskating,dancing? haha

my darling!(:

*MUACKS" to the lovely beach ball

aloy and me on the (we call it)YOU-TUBE haha

at the wavepool
the sun was brilliant today(:

aloy and me on the big big float at the wavepool

my sis says this is the NICEST photo
is it?:D

after we bathed..
and before our kfc dinner..

awww(:

and in case you're wondering
that's not all the photos we took
we took a grand total of 68 photos(:
but of cos the rest let's just make it special and keep it within the two of us haha

KTV tmr w my medicine og
no im not singing(:
and lunch with my grandpa!

yes im from poly

2008-07-29T22:08:00.003+08:00

so as usual i was waiting for 903/169 at my house bus stop
today im dressed in a navy green racer and denim shorts w my adidas tote
normal.i blend in.right?
and suddenly i find a whole bunch of republic poly ppl,majority guys, flooding the bus stop
the guys,unfortunately,are singing 'sex bomb,sex bomb,..' rather audibly
so i carefully position myself as far away from them as possible,though it meant i had to stand in the sweltering sun.
i feel their gazes and coupled with the sun,it felt awkward
they stand like a few metres away and i can hear them perfectly well
'go ask her number la' 'she just standing there' 'go la go la'
someone walks towards me and walks back again.then they gossip more.
i pray and wish the bus would come quick.
i call leon to tell him i cant help him print the tuition grant form n try to prolong the convo as much as i can.
when i get off the phone,some guy is walking towards me.

'my friends think you're cute.that guy there,see that one,he wants to talk to you.
he likes you."
me: stone and never reply
he walks back and goes like 'she nvr reply you go talk to her laa'

after a few agonising minutes,903 arrives
im relieved.
it's too crowded for all of them to board so they decide not to n get off.
then all the guys started waving to me through the window
i waved back,glad im away frm them
then this guy makes the telephone thing w his hand
omg.

matriculation day is like nus open hse #2
i end up with many goodie bags
i look like some shopaholic with many shopping bags just like in the movies
except theirs is prob empty
but mine arent

met aloy for dinner at subway, west mall
and im loving the fun we have(:

my busyy saturday(:

2008-07-27T21:24:00.004+08:00

supposed to wake up at 630am
i did wake up.but i turned off the alarm and slept a bit more haha
till like 705 i went to bathe
161 to sengkang.1 stop to buangkok
omg BUANGKOK.it's a reallyy weird place no offence.
took 43 to where the homes were
we were assigned tembusu home
most of them look 50+ - my heart really goes out to old ppl=(
they're really pitiful sigh
we took a chartered bus with a group of i think 20+ of them to botanic gardens
IT'S PRETTYYY(:
some of the tembusu home ppl are reallyy quite friendly(:
got this guy keep shaking our hands
then we gave them bread to feed the fish and that guy sat down and started EATING the bread.omg.i was like UNCLE dont eat..we wanna feed the fish with that one(in chi)
then he-okay his name is(he gave us alot) ya3 ba1 or ah huat or toh or huat haha,oh yeah he qt cute he went like oh ya sorry*laughs* then he walk to the lake there and ATE the bread again.omg.then i had to remind him again.it was pretty amusing really..
we just walked from the main entrance to the nus law campus entrance.and talked to them along the way.most of them seem pretty okay to me.i dont feel like they have any psychiatric problems
camwhored while waiting for the bus
back at tembusu home,we left from there.
took perry's car to compass point where we got lost on the way and i had to call dear val for help.
she's VERY PRO.like she knows where the blocks are and rivervale plaza and the lrt line(:
my pro sis.

had pizza hut at compass point from like 1230 to 2
DEAR VAL was there tooo!!she was eating lunch at swensen's which is like 5m away frm pizza hut n i didnt see her=( maannn
at 150 i left for home while the others went dhoby ghaut i think..
slacked abit at home,helped my sis with maths,bathed and changed and left for bugis

bluffed aloy tt i needed lightsticks for rag:D
then we walked the food fair where i ate MOCHI GREEN TEA *yummyyy* and muah chee and we went to adidas
i want the white gold adidas jacket!><
can someone buy it for me?:D haha!

took mrt to dhoby ghaut to meet wahtoon so he could pass me my l'amour pink phone
the train was SOO CRAMMED.but it was fun(:
walked in ps for abit
in carrefour we wanted to buy chicken for the mad potluck but there was a LONG QUEUE omg.

took mrt to toa payoh
super crowded again.
i was laughing cos it was soo funny to be squashed.
then my hand abit numb cos it was stuck against my handbag cos of this guy's big bagpack
lucky got aloy to hold me in the train
but crowded trains rock cos we're so squashed against one another(: awww
haha aloy and i had fun in the train=D

bought drinks at cheers
waited for 139 then we saw terrence
haoqi was on the bus too
he's at pgp too!-so i got to ask the qns my parents keep asking me-.-
went to meiling's hse
when i entered the door,my modern mad juniors started screaming luh
i thought WHAT HAPPENED.
then were the usual HUGS and they all saw the scrapbook i made for aloy and they said it was SUPER SWEET and romantic and haha they all crowded round to see
then they saw the lightsticks n i told them my plan
haha then it became super noisy again cos i have HIGH JUNIORS
lol went to sit on the couch with nicholas lim and meiling
ainan charmaine chua and serene were in front of me
ate junk food and talked to nicholas and ainan
AINAN IS A COMMANDO
OMG.
haha.
alot of the girls are going overseas=(
upenn,nyu...
then at 8+ aloy and i wanted to leave to celebrate his bday
but of cos gotta CAMWHORE with my dear juniors and the numerous hugs once again
then they all sang happy birthday with me and aloy in the centre and them surrounding us haha

camwhored more(:
i was like why dont i take with a few of you all at one time then faster
but they want one-on-one so..haha yeah
then wanted to leave alr(for the ten thousandth time) then pris waved and we took photo and talked and laughed again.
her driving instructor declares her 'unsafe' for her tp lol!

cabbed to botanic gardens(:
DAMN ULU
it's some dark scary place with no one and hardly any lights
worlds apart from how it was crowded with ppl just that very same morning
i took aloy to the slope where the shaw foundation stage is then told him to stand a distance away
then formed HAPPY BDAY I LOVE YOU with the LIGHTSTICKS
then i brought him to see it and he was super touched=D haha
and i gave him the scrapbook
there was this bunch of young ppl like qt far away on the flat grass below then they saw and started saying how sweet and what 'one boy one girl' lol
and they sang happy bday to him!
cool right?:D
in eng and chi.i knew cos when they went 'happy birthday to...*anyhow say la* *anything anyth*
so abit obvious(:
then we went to sit on some bench and talked and take photo
i wanted to get him a cake but it wld have been kinda not nice alr cos we run all over the place..
oh i gave him a MINNIE balloon too hahaha

we took a wrong exit out to cluny road,walked some dist b4 realising we'd take a LONG time to reach the main road cos we're walking the perimeter of botanic garden,went back to the nus law exit,walked out to the DESERTED main road w traffic lights,managed to hail a cab amazingly at 1030 and aloy sent me home(:
all the way downstairs

was hungry but too tired to eat
helped my sis with maths then went to bed
slept for 12hours or sth
and i slept my whole aft today too.

*and that concludes my lovely fulfilling day

my week(:

2008-07-25T21:53:00.004+08:00

it was a happy busy week and tmr is a special dayy!
hm okay tues was a lovely day going back to hc
dear jiaying went to random msg a few of the other juniors so they all met at my classbench at 1030 that beautiful tues morning to chat
laughed a lot.talked alot.
hey im really not a bimbo la haha
I LOVE MY DARLING JUNIORS.
they're the best juniors anyone could ask for.
and of cos,photos photos=)
they all want me to invite them to my wedding haha
then i met shueli at 11 and went to collect my grad cert from the admin office and simon was there
yueqi and soph came too
we all then went to the much-missed canteen for chicken mushroom and tomyam yong tau fu-yueqi dear and i shared cos we wanted to eat both pretty badly haha!
talked a while then we went to the welfare room to get fac shirts
i have this year's apollo,ares and athena shirts.
but NONE from my year.is this sad or what?-they got stolen-.-

cabbed to nus at 115 to celebrate hanxin's bday
her present was..um..walao the guys ahh
2+-4+ we hardworkingly worked on rag-cutting cans and more cutting into the 5cm rectangular things
at 4+ i cabbed to dear aloy's house to visit him cos he was sick=/
stayed till 8 then we went to toa payoh to have dinner
but his dad came so i had to go
mad rush to cwp's popular and fujifilm shop at 9+ before they close to get essentials *winks*

wed
had breakfast with daichao at mcd cck-the rest pangseh laa
then we took 190 to town
walked wisma and taka down to ps
fish and co. glasshouse lunch with my medicine og(:
celebrated hanxin's bday again
at 2+ i left for hwachong cos i wanted to meet aloy for a lunch date
and i wanted to pass my juniors stuff
thanks dear babes for waiting for me(:
met jiaying,hanzhi,nicole and jiayuan
and of cos tons of hugging just like on tues-esp hanzhi,we like talk abit,hug,talk,hug,talk,hug..haha you get it
at 3+ aloy and i went to coro for beef teridon!
then took 157 to toa payoh and we went his hse slack abit then i went home..

thurs was a lazzyyy day
i had stuff on and lotsa stuff to do
like *ahem* and my mum wanted me to pack my clothes cupboard
gave away alot of clothes-YAY MORE SPACE FOR NEW ONES
time to go shopping!!

today
had to chiong piano hw like siao
it's amazing how i still did pretty well
aloy dated me to iceskate
BUT RINK CLOSURE at 430 and we reached at 4-.-
didnt know got such thing man haha
so we went to the arcade for many rounds of bball,bishibashi,daytona and this police shooting game
oh we watched HELLBOY2
okaayyy la
but the seats damn creaky-makes me feel f-a-t
then we walk walk abit then aloy took the train with me home at 7+ cos i had piano lesson

tmr's a special BUSY happyyy dayy=)
there's cip,mad reunion and his birthday!
helpp me seriously.

okay im LATE for ghost whisperer!
*rushes off*

ZOOOO!(:

2008-07-20T22:01:00.003+08:00

photos
INUKA HAS THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS ME:D
but im older than him by a year haha

first time i woke up at 9plus on a sunday haha
then saw aloy's msg asking if i wanna go out
made plans to meet him at woodlands at 1130
we had lunch at mos!
i had unagi rice burger,he had yakiniku meal and clam chowder
took a cab to the zoo

um we spent like nearly 5hours there
1226 to 5pm :D
it was nice relaxing taking a nice stroll enjoying all the animals
we watched the polar bear feeding session at 105 n the sealion show n the lion feeding session-i feel kinda happy cos we had good timing today(:
it kept raining,stopping then raining again
when we were at the treetop trail it was blazing hot man
tanning temperature haha
anw YAYY i feel happy going to the zoo=)
havent been there in a really long while
the last time i went there it was still under construction=/
must thank aloy for accompanying me even though he was sick today
thanks dear!(:

oh but it was infuriating cos my cam died like before we were halfway through-.-
so i have super few photos=(
which makes me feel like going to the zoo again
this time with a fully charged batt and EXTRA cam batt haha

had dinner at the food court at causeway point-i havent been there in ages.
then i went home cos daddy made steak and insisted i come home for dinner(:
watched batman begins on channel 5-can you believe i havent watched it before?
but i declare i hate the commercials in between><

yayy i love today
*happyy*(:

my week

2008-07-19T23:25:00.003+08:00

okay i had a very packed week but alot of illegal stuff went on :D so i cant really disclose what i did.
but i had a lovely busy happy week!packed with too much stuff actually=/
was out every single day:s
there were stuff clashing and i had to miss certain things=( but i love the busy-ness and rushing for everything feel(:

saturday
was out with aloy for like 10hours today-yeah now that i think abt it,it's qt alot
i thought 8hrs on wed was alot alr..
met aloy at ps cafe cartel then we went to the cathay
dark knight was sold out for 3,330,4,430 and all the way till 1030pm was selling fast=.=
omg.so haha we went to the jap 99cents place to have a delicious albeit expensive lunch
i had alot of fun=)
then we went to suntec engwah and bought tix for 6pm movie.
that was about 3plus
we hit the arcade!
4rounds of consecutive bball-we're not bad man=D
then we played that throw ball game!!haha
it was damn fun but super waste money.
played the photo game-aloy's idea haha
and of cos bishi bashi we're qt pro okay=)
walked around abit..
i bought my ripples slippers*happy*
went to cottage waffle for a couple fondue
the chocolate's really nice and thick and yummyy
i loved the marshmallows(:

the dark knight is a really lovely show
my og was right!i enjoyed every bit of it
but the ending's kinda sad
am i the only person who teared?
of cos,who you watch the movie with matters.
today was cosy and sweeet=)
and it was not just in the movies.
even when we were walking around i felt like we're a couple(:
is it me or were you really sweet and funny and cute and fun today?

i like holding your hand-thanks(:
and thanks for making me smile and laugh
i had a happy day:):)

2008-07-13T18:00:00.001+08:00

medicamp photos!

grandpa's bday photos!

my world's spinning around

2008-07-13T16:47:00.002+08:00

sorry for mia-ing!
i really wanna blog but there just doesnt seem to be time for that!
everytime i try typing something i gotta rush off.
okay let's see,had medcamp(:
which was a blast!SABINA OWNED LA
we were 3rd on the first day after amazing race
2nd on the 2nd day after station games
and 1st i suppose after cookout and war games!
we're just hot beyond hot!
i love our 'smack that' cheer=D
okay im lazy to describe what happened cos there's too much too much to say and i dont have time to blog all that(:
but walao samuel i mean THE MOLE gave me horrid bruises la haha.actually it didnt hurt when he pinched then but it's UGLYYY.haha.
okay i cant think of what else to say cos my mind is too cluttered with stuff.
every single day im bombarded with emails.

there's too much going on haha!
hulin was telling me abt vcf camp this mon to thurs.
wed and thurs we have rag 10-6
there's the whole issue of whether we shld go for dnd or go chill,complete w the democratic poll
and the bbq thing
ohh and the many mini og outings we're gonna have-suggestions are pouring in
and the dark knight charity screening
and the maybe-clubbing after that.
n i still wanna go for volunteer and meet up with friends before school starts
oh and im hoping i get to be a flyer for rag dance.
i still wanna go to the zoo with aloy.
chris said sth abt hellboy on tues..
.packed schedule.

met samantha loh and reihorng yesterday for lunch at nydc(:
after my hep A/B shot-i hate hate injections.
haha rei says he feels like he's babysitting us
and according to rei,the more he looks at us, the more he thinks we're twins HAHA
shared alot of laughter and haha sam, you and i really are different.
but in a good way(:
so yes,i have a fraternal twin!!as of yesterday=)

grandpa's bday dinner at minori at UE2(nvr heard of it in my life)
which was pretty nicee i guess
unlimited sashimi,sushi,teriyaki..
jap food heaven(:
oh i camwhored with mummy and daddyy!!MUST SHOW YOU GUYS
okay i shall rush to use photobucket.

on a random note,
my councillor's really fun to talk to(:

RANDOM-everything i think of that time at nus with sup's legs one in one out of the car i start laughing:D

love.

2008-07-02T22:22:00.004+08:00

i wanna dedicate this post to the most special guy in my life
i remember how jealous my friends, classmates and juniors were early last year cos he was just the sweetest,most sensitive,most romantic guy around.
and then things happened and they started to have a bad impression of him
but i wanna say now that he has always been,and will always be that perfect guy that made them go 'awwww so sweet' and 'ohman why cant my bf be like that too' etc

he..
is someone who likes to be alone and have time to himself
he doesnt tell you what he's thinking about.
he may look dao and unfriendly-but if you're one of the special people who talks to him you know that he's a sweet sensitive smart intellectual guy with substance(:
although he may look like he dont care on the outside,he cares alot for me deep down
he wont tell me im on his mind,that he's thinking of me even when he does.
in everything he does,he thinks of all the possibilities,all the consequences,looks at both sides of the picture,and considers everything,every detail that people miss out
whatever he does,he always thinks of others first before himself
i know alot of people arnd him who takes him for granted-he's someone who takes care of the details and people often miss out on all the small things he does that matter.
to me he has a beautiful soul.
but too bad,alot of people dont see it.
he stands out among all the guys our age.
he's a matured sensible guy who has the right values(according to my parents(:
i just wanna say that no matter how hard i look,i will never be able to find someone as good as him.

because of me,he lost someone else in his life.
but he's not bitter against me, nor is he angry
i have been really silly to worry and feel threatened,believing that someone else is more important to him,being mean and shouting at him over it.
but he never gave up on me-he patiently listened to me shout,curse,cry..
i feel really ashamed of myself.
the truth is,he sees me as one of the most important people in his life
he knew that he may lose someone if he chose me.
but he still did.

in one phone call,i felt this strong wave of true love.
love in its purest form.
it was so strong it was radiating and engulfing me for a long time.
i cld feel it standing at the bus stop,i cld feel it on the bus,i cld feel it on the train,i cld feel it walking home.
and then i saw that you dont have to hug,kiss or say 'i love you' to show love.
cos in that phone call,there was neither of it.
but yet,it was pure naked love.

he's the one i wanna cherish in my life
he's someone i cannot lose
he's that charming sweet smart caring gentle romantic hot adorable guy all along
and i hope everyone sees that(:

(koped this from yueqi' s blog)
Someone may really love you. Like really really. Even if they scold you. Even if you throw tantrums. But they love you for shouting at them. They love you for doing things which really hurt them. They love you for falling & hurting yourself. They love you through vomit, snot & times when you are sick. They love not only you but people who are important to you as well. They love you for times you don't even look out for them or stand up for them when you really should.They love you for coming & going, at your best & even so at your worst. Some people have a bottomless well of love for you.

Their only flaw is not making you work for it.

i love you aloysius

*********************************

had a nicee lunch with him on monday at crystal jade(:
i rem the pro 2.4km sniper!haha
shant say much but we walked arnd blahblah
oh oh we spent a long time at the petshop amusing ourselves with the roboroski(i cant spell it-.-)
they are damnn cutee:D they run on the wheel soo fast they fly out!im not kidding!HAHA.
it totally made me laugh.
yup we just talk talk walk walk..

had lunch at ajitei at ps with him(:
um we were the only ones there at first lol
but the sashimi is fresh=)
and he said his was nicee too
then we took a train to borders at wheelock cos he wanted to get a book
and went back to ps just in time for Get Smart(:
it's funnyyy-go watch it!=D
bought saybons crepes and broccoli and cheddar soup for dinner
their crepes are NICE-i had ham and cheese
i MUST try their dessert crepes soon haha
went back with him for awhile..

it's 1141 and i feel really shagged=s
nights=)

PHOTOS!

2008-06-29T21:16:00.002+08:00

28JUNE SAMs and SEVENFIVEE
-link to photos(:

i feel happy today
it's a special kind of happiness i havent felt for a really long time
the calming relaxing no-worries sort(:
i realise tangibility means alot to me
it gives me security

dont cry because it's over
smile because it happened=)

2008-06-28T23:27:00.012+08:00

i went with SAM to SAM today!! haha
samantha loh and i went to the flea market at Singapore Art Museum today(:
THIPAK WHY DIDNT YOU SAY HI
the crazy man called me and said what are you doing at yck-.-
lol.then he said he saw me but he was rushing for driving.
heyy where's our yp outing huh:D
anw the flea market was HOT but it was kinda fun.
i got reallyy pretty earrings!
and yeah walked alot and had a fabulous lunch at some jap place.
it's the cheapest jap place ever-let's all go there!haha
then we went orchard to shop.

met val at orchard mrt
bought a cake at taka
190 to toon's hse.
the function room is damn prettyy!
can we have a sleepover there next time?haha
we were there at 5pm-damn early la
CAMWHORED ALOT TODAY
but i look HORRID!shldnt have cut my fringe yest,it's so short now=( oh but it's not like i ever looked good so guess it's okay
like everyone brought cams,esp the girls-so when we took a 4ppl photo we will be like 'must take with my cam toooo!' then for every cam we posed differently!!so cooool right!
we did ONE to TEN.there's a GUY's version n a GIRL'S version=D
and we used paper napkins to pose tooo!yueqi's cool idea haha
ordered canadian pizza, lasagne n calamari rings, there was popiah.
and yupp we had the music and everyth.
oh and the cake for apr-july birthday babies!(:
i love the catching up with everyone=)

YUEQI DEAR,thanks so much for listening to me and for making me feel so much better
haha yupp i will call you to talk one day!*BIG HUGG* i love our gu niang pics with the paper napkins!=)
ZHUTING for sharing all the anatomy stuff that i'll prob be doing in medicine-you make it sound so fun and un-scary(:
seeing yingchern (small ppl rock!)again-YAY WE BOTH KNIT.she's going manchester soon=( i'll MISS YOUU:(
siyuunn ROCKS-her smile is reallyy damn nicee
YIWEI has crazy ideas for pictures-look at the EVOLUTION monkey to man one we attempted
SHUELI (small ppl too!) for all that chatting -you look pretty in a dress today=)
VALERIE my darling dearest sister!for always being the bestest sister in the world
CHANKEET my brother!(: whom i havent seen for soo long
Lek chia!come protect my neighbourhood!haha
ROBERT i'll heed ur advice on those guys(: lol
CHRIS SEAH is as lame as ever
SEAN my brother too-we all attacked your tummy sorry=/ haha it's irresistible
YONG dont call me noob you're NOOB-ER than me haha.
WAHTOON im soo jealous-your condo is reallyy nice-invite us over for a swim sometime:D and i realise i still owe you lunch OOPS:D can u treat me instead?
IVAN as always saying the craziest stuff(i get alot on the phone=D thanks for all the chats we had,esp when you're in army.im sorry you're always the one calling me haha)
EUNICE and YEENSEEN please takecare!get well soon!
sevenfive rocks!

12th july-class night cycling
15th july-going back to hc?shue update me=D
we just love each other dont we?(:

sam i love you too!

photos soon.
actually im supposed to come online to send wahtoon so he can create a facebook album w the pics or sth.but im kinda tiredd haha.

2008-06-27T18:51:00.005+08:00

at some point in life,you shld realise tt you cannot get the best of both worlds
everything comes with a sacrifice
and that's when you need to choose

when there have been too many lies,
it's kinda hard to tell which are truths and which arent
so,to protect yourself you'd choose to avoid contact so you dont have to think so much whether sth said is true or not
confusion sucks
i dun wanna go through life guessing.

when someone hurts you deeply,
and continues to do so often,
it's instinct to break away
who wants to get hurt again and again?
we're humans
we have our limits too.

when someone doesnt care anymore
he doesnt have to say it-you know it yourself
and this time you're too tired to do sth abt it
cos it has happened far too many times

when someone gives priority to another person in his life,
you know it cos it's obvious
cos he doesnt bother updating you at all
and you have no right to demand it too

the cycle will always continue
and no matter how many times i say to myself 'this time it'd be different'
i need to wake up.and know i cant delude myself forever.
i realise one sided effort is just not enough
so the only decent thing to do is to just give up
and tell yourself dont ever.ever get in again
but this time,unlike before,you actually have to stick by it

someone once told me, "no man's worth your tears.the one who's worth it,will never make you cry"
i wrote that in my diary-and im now waiting for this special guy.

i've sacrificed too much happiness.
i think it's time for me to be happy

2008-06-26T20:57:00.003+08:00

the past few days have been pretty okay i guess.
tues i went out w val and shue.
get smart is NICE(:
it's reallyy funny so catch it if you can.
had a nice jap lunch at united square at YOTEI
it's nice to talk and laugh abt stuff with my dear sister
we watched the movie at j8
after the movie we were standing outside faceshop when we heard this teenage girl shout F***YOU damn loudly to this woman like right behind us so we quickly moved
we thought it was her mum but the lady had those nametags so i guess she's some departmental store sales assistant or sth
tt girl just kept screaming n saying 'i didnt take anyth frm you'
she screamed really loudly.
then a whole crowd gathered arnd them but 3 of us just walked off.
it's pretty dramatic.but kinda scary.

wed-woke up pretty late
talked to samantha loh over the phone for qt long
ate lunch w my grandpa at sakae.
he's a fan-they give him 10% discount for loyalty im not kidding.
shopped
went over to SATA for medical checkup req'd by nus.
i think the nurses shld come up w a less scary comparison for the pin prick(blood sample)
"oh it doesnt hurt.feels like you staple yourself like tt only"
im like *stuns* stapling your finger HURTS.
i accidentally stapled myself once and it was pretty painful
which is why it only happened ONCE.it hurt so much i wasnt gonna let it happen again.
in the end i ended up taking blood from my arm.
i've learnt that i have nice big visible veins which is an advantage cos the nurse wldnt have to poke the needle too many times(ouch!) or accidentally poke other veins n muscles(it causes unsightly bruising)

i think the sarah connor chronicles at 830's not bad
n i watched arts central's documentaries till 11
before going online

there's only one way to end this suffering

i give up.

2008-06-23T23:52:00.002+08:00

i woke up at 3pm today.
and i slept at 12+ am yest.
WOAH.haha.
i have ALOT of phlegm.eew.and flu.
i think im dying or sth.

i think the 7pm show on channel 8 is nicee(:
so you think you can dance at 8pm totally inspires me to dance again man
baked today!cos sis desperately need plain muffins for her cip by tmr.
and she's got lotsa work so i baked them instead
and i handwashed my colour-run clothes.
and watched prison break at 10pm
talked to val and luke
val n i are going out tmr!yayyy(:
we're gonna cut hair
then watch Get Smart with shueli at 4+

i wanna learn DRUMS!
shld i take ballet again?

my wkend

2008-06-22T23:38:00.004+08:00

sat was family day.
went to novena square 2 for sis's piano practice session cos her exam's on 1st july
it's like koreatown or little korea there cos most of the shops sell korean stuff
no offence but i think jap ppl have better dress sense than koreans=D
shopped again(: - it always makes me happy

sun
went out with sean(:
we havent seen each other for more than a mth!
he treated me to billy bombers at the cathay
i actually finished my beeegg burger
oh but in like one n a half hours haha
we shared a cheese fries,sean had ribs(it was damn huge-can be my breakfast lunch dinner for a day) and i had a naked gun burger with cheddar cheese n melted cheese
and i got a book too!=) courtesy of sean cos it's buy 3 for the price of 2 at times
for one more day by mitch albom
i love the title-it's short but sweet
im glad for the sharing we had today!
oh oh n i got my cam=D
sean feels thinner
i rem the last thing i hugged him he was more squishy and teddybearish or sth LOL
now he feels thinner and harder(: (boy is he gonna be happy seeing this)
even after lunch at 4plus when we said our goodbyes.
gt back at 5plus n slept till 7+
didnt feel like eating dinner

and my siblings are damn cute!!
my sis bought me the cute cute elmo tt i've been saying i want for very long
and a glass bottle w many pink n white capsules in it
i was like okay *opens capsule**sees a tiny scroll inside**closes capsule*
then they told me to open n read the scrolls i was like O_o you guys wrote in it?!
so i read the little sweet notes my sis wrote-my sis only gave my bro ONE to write
then he was opening all the capsules n removing the ring arnd them n looking for the one he wrote for me(: AWWWW
i was soo happy and soo touched i big hugged them=)
*HAPPYYY*

i've been through an emotional rollercoaster these two days
huge mood changes
then i realised tt though i refused to admit it the past few days
deep down inside
i cant bear to lose you.

confused.

2008-06-21T23:38:00.006+08:00

my dad says returning what a person gives you is symbolic of a clean break
so yes i get it.

if you dont want sth cos it means nth to you anymore,
it's worthless to me too.
dont bother giving it to me.
just throw it away.
just like how im gonna throw the ring away
cos it's just a piece of metal.
nothing more;
okay i gtg dump every single shit related to you,
after 7mths it's clear it's impossible
i dont wanna waste any more time,feelings and effort.

2008-06-21T00:17:00.002+08:00

you know i will still forgive you
but that's all.

had so much fun with luke today!
we went out from 2+-10+ O_o time flies!it felt like two hours
watched MISSING-i love the theme song(:
i laughed alot alot today
we always have tons of fun- we walked around LUCKY PLAZA seeing how it's like.just for a mini adventure.most of the shops were closed cos it was like 8+.it was SOO SCARY cos it's deserted!like those places they film ghost movies in hong kong=D
I LOVE BULLYING LUKEeEe!!
my fav phrase now is "are you.retarded" complete with the -.- i can do it really well man ask luke haha.
but he really cares for me and was so totally comforting when i cried at the hongkong cafe at cine cos it's my 2nd time there.realised my first time was with...and i got upset again.sigh.
but he was all ready with the hugs and comfort=D
and you cant be sad arnd luke.
he says the stupidest things every second=D no offence dear.haha!
we shopped ate watch movie shop talk eat-okay you get the point(:
he says im CUDDLY AND HUGGABLE awww(: like a teddy bear. but i always thought teddy bears were,you know,kinda round n i dont feel round(:
im *HAPPY* today(:

2008-06-20T22:46:00.004+08:00

sometimes i think im stupid.
for people i love, i wld dumbly forgive them again and again no matter how they hurt me.
to the extent that they start taking advantage of me-but i guess it's my fault.
and they don't know how much i suffer inside.
they don't know that i wake up every morning haunted by thoughts of them
thoughts i cannot control cos it's my subconscious.
but to be human is to suffer.
and i believe God doesnt make you suffer more than you can take.
it's painful,but it's good because tt's when you learn and grow stronger as a person.
everyone suffers at some point in their life
but people who know me know im the emotional sort
my feelings control me more than my mind
which totally sucks now if you think about it.
but i will move on.
and it's a good lesson
cos i finally accept that my dad is right-never trust people too much.
i think i cant ever get a bf anymore
i'd prob be too scared to trust again
because i cant go through this a second time
once is enough;

happy

2008-06-17T22:07:00.003+08:00

i didnt intend to blog today but today's a happyy day(:(:
i totally love the kids at kk we had such a FUN time today
i miss uno!and puzzles.and um..i did colouring today-it feels cool=)
i felt so sad cos they were like 'are you coming again tmr'
absolutely adorable-i LOVE kids!haha.
and they all have PSPs=.= im not kidding.i was so stunned.
and today was special cos dinner totally rocked
it was soo sweeet of you and i know im weird but i was so happy*big smile*
but i enjoyed it.i think your ******* skills are the best in the worldd.and i mean it.
thankyou=)
and i still think you're very cute.HAMSTER!=D
okay im starting to not make sense and i realise tt i dont blog abt what we do but it's okay(: it's between you and me:)
LOVE.
Msia photos link

malaysia photos

2008-06-15T20:30:00.007+08:00

RITZ RESIDENCES-our lovely apartment(: with the numerous toilets,fully equipped high class kitchen and 3bedrooms

camwhoring during dinner in the toilet one night in KL
too bored haha

i like this one!-cos my hair actually looks NEAT and nice for a change=D

sis took this with a nice angle(: haha
and yes sorry but more camwhoring
act we camwhored like 40 photos but um abit excessive to post
and it's only cos half of them are blur cos we have SHAKYY hands haha

at my grandma's hse-WEN AND NING
i have PRETTY cousins(look at dearie wen)
and my oh so adorable 2yrold ER NING

SUPPER at my grandma's
hello and you wonder why im growing fat
i gained like 3kg there
now you see why=D
the hokkien mee and kwayteow is the nicest ever!

the rich ferrari guy from spore
im not kidding when i said all the spore cars are either a ferrari,porsche or lamborghini(except mine) haha

the LAMBORGHINI-HOT RIGHT
this is so my car when i grow up=D

ritz breakfast everyday is ALOT
buffet
i usually eat like a bowl of congee w salted fish,egg etc
order an ham n cheese(extra cheese) from the kitchen
pancakes/waffles w whipped cream n maple syrup
and fruits
and ice lemon tea/juice
i dont touch the breads nor yogurts nor salads nor muffins..
haha they def have variety

at pangkor eating mum's bday cake(:
it's a free cheesecake
damn nice=D

sis and i kayaking at pangkor

MICKEY AND MINNIE
you know why darling*smiles*

arent the two MICE CUTTEEE?(:

my act cute cousin-.-
haha

sis and i at one of the pangkor beach

our splendid view from our hill villa

the sea villas

part of the swimming pool at our resort

my sis's artistic scenic shot with ugly me in the background haha

all of us together!

oh oh THAT's our hill villa
cool right
i feel like im those tribal ppl=D

soft cushions!

no it's not our room
it's the reading area at pangkor laut
soo NICE right
got bed to lie on somemore

mummy opening her presents on her bday=D

ive uploaded my malaysia photos at photobucket cos there are just too many to post here-blogger prob ban me if i post too many or sth haha.

anw some random things i've realised..

mark is delusional:D he thinks he's the cutest thing ever despite my convincing assertions that he's not.but he's way funny and says the SWEEEETEST things!(: and im still trying to figure if his gf's name is lyra or fiona.he thinks i look like a toilet cleaner(WALAO!) please tell me i dont.haha

keith koh is a big fat owl! who calls me big monster head(which im so not) and he cannot stop niao-ing me.it's his favorite hobby can-.-

ck is such a nice cool brother who offers wise advise and i cant ask for a better brother than him(: and my dear fat sean too(oops=D) who i bet is still round and chubby(i wanna pokee you=D) and ivan who always calls me to ask why i never call him-.- but he says the funniest gay things ever
which reminds me that on wed im going bugis street AGAIN(cos ivan wants to) but it's okay(: more shoppinggg!!

14th June

2008-06-14T23:02:00.002+08:00

met my dearie sis val at bugis today!
sorry but we totally didnt camwhore today=( cos we both forgot our cam how smart-.-
so anw we had a nice super filling lunch at miss clarity cafe at purvis street
where my cheeks were aching cos we talk,chew,yak,laugh,smile..
shared a fish cordon bleu and beef baked rice(half half each of cos as usual)
haha i had to rest my mouth and stop chewing for awhile cos my jaws were way tired of moving
then after our happy*smile* lunch
we went to bugis street to shop
HAHA I GOT GOOD DEALS
more pretty clothes
SHOPPING ROCKS(:
oh so then cos we cldnt try there,we went to bugis junction toilet to try
we went into one cubicle then the toilet lady was like "why so long!you all smoking right!im gonna call security(or sth)" to arrest us or sth
oops.so then wah toon called n said he come find us.

i was supposed to have dinner with ivan and toon but ivan had fever and left at 2+
so we decided to cancel our dinner plans
so anw toon came to bugis to find us,then val had to leave for her cousin's hse.
he needed to go singtel shop so i went with him
then we walk walk see watch and I GOT PICKPOCKETED
my handbag was open n this woman took my N95
but i kinda saw and i shouted HEY MY PHONE
then she dropped it and ran
lousy pickpocket-er-.- lol
then toon wanted to go after her and he said i shld take her to the police or sth lol
i told my dad abt it,who says it's a lesson-.- tt i shld stop thinking everyone in the world is a saint cos they are so not.and tt i shld be LESS TRUSTING of everyone.
siao.why shld i distrust ppl?

anw wahtoon wanted those cute superhero watch n i was like, bugis street has so we ended up going there AGAIN.
and wahtoon bought FIVE watches.we were totally laughing when he was choosing cos he's so crazy.
hello he bought a mickey mouse one-.- HAHA
then we went shopping and i helped him choose cos he asked me to(:
so he ended buying qt a few stuff
till like 7 then we went to PS
cos i needed to buy yarn from spotlight to knit.
bought 30DOLLARS WORTH OF YARN.-like 22 balls?
haha.then we went daiso to buy stuff.
my legs were soo tired from non stop shopping i had to sit so i bought my favorite watermelon soymilk w pearls and sat at Mcdonald's for a while
then at 9plus we decided to go home
i totally didnt feel like walking anymore man.

on the train i met a nice young guy(:
i think he saw tt i periodically stretched my legs so when there were seats
he ask me to sit but all the kiasu ppl rush to sit so i had to cont standing
then he asked if my stuff were heavy and i said okay la
then he reached out and wanted to carry my bags for me which i thought was qt sweet of him cos i totally dont know him(: but i said no thanks
i wld feel bad if he helped.
but yeah so who says people arent nice?=)
i meet alot of nice random strangers
i rem the record-breaking week i everyday meet new strangers and made new friends(:
that was way coool

okay my eyes and legs are reallyy tired
and crap havent thought of sth to give my dad tmr
cos i usually randomly give him stuff like wine chocs and notes and cards and hugs and kisses so for tmr,i dont know what to do=/
but i wanna declare that I LOVE MY DADDYY VERY VERY MUCH
and that he's the BEST DADDY in the whole whole world
my daddy ROCKS!
he is way cool,way funny,and he loves me alot=D

which smurf am i?

2008-06-12T22:14:00.001+08:00

SEVENFIVEE;

2008-06-12T01:42:00.004+08:00

世界若是那麼大為何我要忘記你無處逃
世界若是那麼小為何我的真心你聽不到

i was rereading all my blog entries from oct06-dec06
and realised how i totally missed sch!
i cant believe im saying this but i miss the guys' niao-ing,all their crazy comments and silly jokes
i miss them disturbing me, singing the songs they make up to annoy me..
i miss all the eating blatantly in lectures esp maths=D where we pass food around like nobody's business and bring drinks in from the canteen too(chris seah i rem your strawberry yogurt drink during the vectors lecture! haha)
not to mention all the cookies, chocolate cornflakes, muffins etc that the girls unanimously took turns to bake
i miss our playing with water, whether it's our water bottles or the distilled water bottles in the lab
we were damn naughty laa-everytime bio lab tchr leaves the clsroom a while we squirt distilled water at each other and it gets the floor damn wet haha.
and of cos the wonderful times in lectures when we forget to bring our notes and just sat there eating happily in the FIRST ROW and talking abt stupid stuff like shampoo and hair and what other crazy stuff(:
and after promos where we had class outings to taka and other places to PIG OUT
our class just has this love for food(:
oh oh i miss yong and sean calling me noob and their crazy ideas
like crazy yong suggested i teleported to the canteen from our cls bench by using the YELLOW DUSTBIN next to our cls bench.
he says it fits me-.- WALAO. haha
but i bully them back too so it's okay(:
okay i just really miss sevenfivee.
cant wait for the class outingS(: that are coming soon

best of both worlds by miley cyrus
is an addictive song guaranteed to make you bob to the beat and feel like dancing(:

see my blog profile(:

smilee

2008-06-11T12:36:00.001+08:00

i decided to change my template cos of a special someone:D
you know who you are
SMILE yeah(:
cos you're my SUNshine

iloveitwhenyousmile

sorry.

2008-06-09T17:12:00.002+08:00

i owe someone a really big apology.
i dont know if she'll ever accept it.
but i just wanna tell you that i'm really sorry.
i didn't mean to flame you-cos i wasnt angry at you at all actually
and have totally no reason to be.
i was more upset at what he said.
but i never meant to hurt your feelings.
so i just wanna say sorry for what i did.
and apologise on my sister's behalf too.
but i wanna be clear here that i DID NOT APPROVE of her flaming.
i told her not to-it's up to you to believe me.
cos i really dont see the point of her doing it.
logically, her flaming would just worsen things between me and him and of cos i wldnt want that
but still, sorry for everything.

再次相信

2008-06-07T20:18:00.006+08:00

im still sick=(
it's been more than two weeks
i always feel so tired and drained
ohh well

sun sand and sea!
the crystal blue waters of the indian ocean
hill villa perched on a hill overlooking the vast ocean and greenery of the nearby island,surrounded by tropical rainforest
wildlife in its purest form-endless clams burrowing into the sand to escape from predators,crabs of all shapes n sizes, fishes of all sorts, stingrays in the water, sea urchins..
i love nature!(:
haha photos and videos next time

was watching 樱野3加1 and i think the lyrics of this song are fitting!
有太多回忆都发生在那年的仲夏季
明明该天晴爱却在你的眼中下雨
我们或许都遗忘那些曾经的美好
已慢慢阳光下发芽

如果你愿意愿意再次相信
相信我是爱你
我不让你失望

我们不该靠太近
总是在争吵过后清醒
夏天的热气让人老控制不住坏脾气

我们或许太任性
又或许太过在乎你
才来追逐著背影

如果你愿意愿意再次相信
相信我是爱你
我不让你失望
我还在这里倔强的夏天里
有风也有大雨阳光洒满地
如果停不了我能体会这心情
我会奋不顾身地把幸福都给你

check your email

dates.

2008-06-03T23:07:00.002+08:00

i was gonna make a list of people im supposed to date when i get back haha
i prob miss out a few=/
not in any order:
mang hann my dear cousin(: and yao of cos
my dearest sister and shue too
my beloved class(who's planning the cls outing? or are the welfare reps supposed to=D
thipak w some yp people to lil india!
my recruitexpress colleagues=)
go back to school and visit my lovely dance juniors(who have been asking me to go back)
treat toon dinner=.= cos of his bday-he sucks lol
go out with ivan and the guys(ivan quick ask us out! haha)-cos ivan claims we only go out when he ask us to-.-
you
haha that's all i can remember for now.
oh oh with cyl, her bf and val too
and keith koh aka owl head=D did you say sth abt dinner or sth over msn the other day
and..haha other ppl who asked me out i shant say who:D
okay that shld be all.
lol.feels like alot of people.

did i mention how much i hate mosquitoes
they irk me! haha
i've got UGLY LEGS NOW=(
mutilated by numerous mosquito bites
im serious.
like 20 a leg or sth-it's like OBS omg.
disgusting.

anw i think living at my grandma's house makes me appreciate what i have
i dont see what's wrong with helping the maid really
yeah we employ them to keep the house neat and tidy
but hey i have hands and legs why shldnt i help right
and those many many lovely outings with my cousins whether day or night
it's a blessing have 28cousins cos it means we have big group outings where we go he1 cha2(drink tea), eat, shop, talk, laugh, camwhore..
we seriously say the dumbest things.do the stupidest stuff.laugh at the most ridiculous things.
COUSINS FOREVER MAN(:(:
it's really good bonding when we go wherever whoever wanna go
sweating together in the hot sun.
looking out for each other.
it's a warm lovely feeling
im LOVING IT!=)

did i mention i have an ADORABLE COUSIN?
she's actually 2plus but is 1plus year old size cos she's a premature baby
but she's SMART
and talks alot
and cos of her size, her voice is damn cute cos technically ppl her size dont talk that much
she has this fake phone and i ask "who call you"(in chinese)
and you know what she says-"nan peng you"(boyfriend)
OMG.hahahaha.
she loves my mum and dad alot and totally clings to them lol.
she says the smartest things.
like once when guests came over,my grandma asked her to go talk to the guest's child who's around her age.
you know what she said?!
she said "ta1 you3 zui1 ba1 bu4 hui4 jiang3 hua4 de4"(she[the guest's child] got mouth but cannot talk one"
siao right.i just laughed like crazy when i heard that!(:
but it cannot beat wahtoon's quote for some hc publication
he ask for my opinion and i just laughed honestly.
i bet the hc ppl sure reject it:D
cos it's just.um.haha ask toon!

do you know

2008-06-01T20:17:00.001+08:00

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away.
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year.
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can’t get it to speak
Maybe finding all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I’m standing on the edge and I don’t know what else to give.

i hate you.

2008-06-01T14:57:00.005+08:00

i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.i hate you.

26 times.

you know what,he really wants to get together with you.
he's so touched you bought him that lovely jigsaw puzzle.
your happiness means more to him than whether i live or die.
so i quit.
and stop getting upset over me because he hates me.
fom now on,he's not going to have any form of contact with me.
so you can stop reading my blog.
and stop asking him about me
cos im out.
and if you dont believe me cos you and him both think im some EVIL BAD PERSON, i can always forward you the sms he sent me abt how he's never ever gonna talk to me in my lifetime.
but you tell him to stop thinking that it's cos i want to get together with luke cos it's NOT
for one thing,i can assure him but he CANT assure me.
and if you ever for one second thought that he cares about me, i tell you that he doesnt.
so just stop worrying!go with him all you want since that's what you've always wanted.
and you know what,he just basically ELIMINATED me so go on, be happy.
it hurts me a hell lot.
but he doesnt care
but im totally used to it.

pretty mice is not the best invention ever.
she shld never have been invented.

DELETE

2008-05-30T10:56:00.006+08:00

(im not gonna post for awhile cos i wanna remind myself of this post)
i hate a guy who can curse at a girl with all sorts of vulgarities as if she didnt matter to him
i hate a guy who gets exasperated and pissed off instead of finding a peaceful solution
i hate a guy whose heart feels one thing but his actions contradict his feelings.
i hate the guy, who accuses me of not thinking of his feelings, because in the first place, he doesnt think of mine-all he does is stomp on my poor heart.
i wanna forget the guy who has broken my heart again and again,no matter how many chances i give him.
i wanna give up on a guy,who used to be my whole world, because i am no longer his world to him.
i want a guy who can appreciate all that im doing for him,just like how i'll appreciate him as best as i can.
i want a guy who loves me for being able to give up everything in this world for him.
可惜那个人不是你
because of you
i hurt someone else really badly.
but that hurt will stop right now.

for six months, i truly believed, and HOPED with all my heart, that one morning, i would wake up to find that things have made a 180degree turn.
i am where i am exactly ONE YEAR AGO.
sitting in the same hotel apartment and making the same late night overseas call using my dad's same blackberry to the same person
but the attitude, the tone, the feelings are no longer the same.
and can never be the same.

it seems that all that i've done for you these 6months is in vain
no matter how i try to make you touched, it isnt working
all the letters,emails,gifts i make for you,smses,calls..
im gonna stop.
the guessing game is too tiring.
i quit.

so now i will still make the same late night overseas call using my dad's same blackberry

it's just that it's not you im calling this time.

it's him.

aloysius ho =
DELETE

updates!

2008-05-29T16:15:00.004+08:00

im in ritz carlton residences again(:
i tell you,all the spore ppl who stay here are freaking RICH(excluding me of cos)
um let's see, i saw 2 lamborghini-one orange one green, 2 porsche and a red ferrari last night and they were ALL SINGAPORE CARS.and that's just those parked outside.i wonder how many more are there in the carpark man haha.

went shopping today!
and haha i've got good deals:D
*happyy*
my mum and i saw Guess bags that we want-same colour but different design
it's 40% off,which makes mine RM173 and mum's RM223
we're both considering(: i hope i can get my dad to buy it for us=D

im at the lounge now having afternoon tea and we're prob heading back to our apartment after this.

22nd May/23rd May
2 fulfilling days(:
sentosa/wildwildwet/mos
did everything i wanted to
sure it was a crazy rush cos i packed so many things into each day but wayy cool
thurs-vivo->wildwildwet->skyride->cineblast->luge(DAMN NICE haha cos at night)->song of the sea->MOS to club
fri-suntan at palawan in the crystal blue sea->cycle along the trails->ben n jerry's!->underwater world where i touched bamboo sharks and stingray and starfish(:->wisma atria(to try to salvage my cam tt dropped into the touch pool)->dinner at yoshinoya->homee

my $799 sony cybershot is DEAD.
so we had to go mustafa on 26th may monday to buy a new cam
waterproof and shockproof 8mp this time lol from olympus-it's yellow
and at the same time get a canon videocam(:

mummy's getting me my own separate cam!!
whatever model i want-but i must like it
YAYYY for now i want a fujifilm pink Z200fd(if it's not too ex)

yellow roses means

LOVE EVERLASTING

fri.sat.sun.mon

2008-05-20T00:00:00.003+08:00

fri
went jj to visit luke
then we went bukit batok and had a nice sizzling pan dessert at swensen's
got my blue hair extensions!! they are seriously hot=)
took a train to orchard where we pigged out at taka
super hot korean rice cake soup, yogurt, toriQ..
walked in taka where i bought my DKNY be delicious(: for EIGHTY EIGHT bucks
*heartbreak*
had a lovely lovely doughnut at cine
then i went vivo to meet my aunts arnd 545
ate dinner at food republic-korean again
played arcade!yes i have funky aunts=D
shop.the super ex fondue at haagen dazs.shop somemore.
tiredddd.

sat
i cant rem what i did.
oh oh but i went for dance night(:
which was nicee.

sun
morn-cycling at pasir ris
sis and i exited at white sands shopping centre,cycled along the bus route to downtown east,to escape and back into the park=D
then we had suntec for lunch at imperial treasure
where i had drunken chicken and noodles in onion oil YUMMY
and um..oh played arcade with sis
the dumb bball machine spoilt so we had endless throwing until we were bored lol
mariokart.i love that cute game man.esp MS PACMAN HAHA
night we just went over to causeway point for dinner at MOS.
and collected my free acuvue moist and autotop up my new ezlink card
spent the night chatting on msn

mon
8+ wake up
9am leave for NUS
dad and i looked at all the residences and halls for like one hour there
timing the distances and stuff haha.
then went to temasek club to get myself in decent shape aka put contacts,usual light makeup..
met valerie at outram park mrt at abt 1130
bought chicken essence for our clsmate's dad
he told me sgh then we were on our way there when he said NUH
n just tt morn at NUS my dad was like SEKALI YOUR FREN IS JUST THERE.
omg and he really was
so we took a train to buona vista,was abt to exit the station then it said got shuttle frm dover
waited for the next train to Dover
exited Dover to the bus stop and guess what!
the shuttle doesnt operate on Public Holiday=.= omg kill us.
took 74 to opp ACJC
waited for 95 to NUH
visited his dad
and i got alittle emotional at the hospital=/
i think im gonna fail as a doctor.
i feel too much=s
it was such a sombre mood as we made our way to suntec by mrt
had lunch at ichiban boshi cos my mummy gave me $20 voucher
ate auntie anne's cinnamon sugar pretzel
played bball with dear sis(:
then walk walk and bought bubble tea
which if you ask me,tasted not nice
then we were soo tired we sat on the floor somewhere.
even though i was in a DRESS.
we were that tired.
tried to camwhore but realised both of us look horrible today cos we're soo tired
took the shuttle to cityhall mrt and train home
i slept from 6+ to 8+ cos i was soo sleepyy
cant wait for chalet this thurs!
alr planned all the activities-www(again=D), luge and skyride, cineblast, song of the sea, underwater world, dolphin lagoon, night cycling, palawan beach.in one and a half days or sth.wish me luck man haha
tmr i decided to go find my grandpa cos i havent seen him for soo long
and there's volunteer in the aft..

wed going shopping at bugis with my mum(:

and thurs and fri are the BIG days
yayyy

我不配

2008-05-19T23:59:00.001+08:00

http://www.justsomelyrics.com/1132316/07.-%E6%88%91%E4%B8%8D%E9%85%8D-Lyrics
i think this aptly paints the situation we're in now

wildwildwet

2008-05-18T22:59:00.004+08:00

went wildwildwet last thurs!(:
it was shiok man.
for one,it's a sch day aka no queues
so it's damn fun to keep taking the rides over and over without wasting waiting time at all
and we made so many new friends there=D
so like half the lifeguards on duty that day know us HAHA
okay i shall not say much except that i was out from 1020 to 810 that day just at wildwildwet lol
here are the photos(:

TP aka driving test

2008-05-08T20:14:00.004+08:00

I PASSED!
omg can you believe it?
i rem getting my results
it was a 4page checklist and on the first page i alr got TEN points
i was like SHIT fail alr.
then i blushed like crazy for some reason=/
but..turns out i only got 2 ticks more behind lol
and then i screamed happily cos i was so happy in the traffic police's office LOL

so everybody..
I HAVE A LICENSE
within 2months and 2wks(:
yayyyy
i really thank God for guiding me through today
and yesterday's interview too(:
everything went all too smoothly and perfectly(:

i called uncle david (my instructor for qt a few times) first
then daddyy(: who was very happyy too
he sounded incredulous-WOW YOU PASSED?
mummy says everyone at home needs me or sth then she was like *smiles* must get into NUS okay?then i call daddy buy you a car.the small kind that close eyes also can park one.
that's exactly what she said
seriously.HAHA

i made NEW FRIENDS.
Vic is from Recruit Express too,but east or jurong side or sth.
COOL right?i was like OMG i work there too(kinda)
okay um we met cos i needed to exchange money for the passport photo(for the license)
yupp ended up talking
then talked to RP ppl(vic's new frens lol)
and oh oh the first time i took the passport photo wrong
then i had 4bucks left over frm the 10 vic lent me(i nd 6)
he went to yck mrt to draw money to pay for license(50bucks)
then this very nice young guy w cool shades gave me 2bucks(:(:
he said it's my luckyy day!=) LOL.
I LOVE PEOPLEE!
everyone rocks
so unbelievably friendly laa
im HAPPYYYYYY

oh and my new name is summer
i'll tell whoever who cant pronounce my name to call me that
cos today the tester went 'SA-MA...taa"
sounds so dumb la.
and SA-MA sounds abit like summer
so whoever who cant call me right you call me Summer
dont SAA-MAA me =D

go listen to 开不了口 by Jay Chou
hope tt doesnt happen

2008-05-08T00:49:00.001+08:00

愛能不能夠永遠單純沒有悲哀
愛可不可以簡簡單單沒有傷害

mon.tues.wed

2008-05-07T18:48:00.003+08:00

well well it's been an exhilarating week(: and i kinda like life this way actually.
it's lovely and refreshing
so anw mon and tues i was sorta personal assistant to the senior manager at recruit express
i LIKE ADMIN WORK.
it makes time pass so fast and of cos,it's all the lovely friends i make there
there's pearlyn,emily,joy,trudy and i-forgot-wat all 19 this year
and daniel,kian yong,julian who are 21 and ORD-ed last yr dec(: and calvin and sean who's a littllee older
so basically all the temp ppl are really funky and friendly
so much so that in 2 days when i had to leave,i missed that soo much
working is so enjoyable and fun and i told them MUST MUST tell me if they need help again
that was yesterday(:
THEN this morning at like 10+, ken said GOT(: HAHA YAYYYY
im gonna work nxt mon and tues.
im *happyyy*

it was double happiness cos i felt that i did my best and all i could for medicine interview today
and i was super talkative today=/
started talking to everyone and anyone
vj ppl,aj girl,rj ppl, even the lady marking attendance and the elderly cleaner!
hahaha
then went home with some rj guy and some girl frm 71(:
today is a lovely lovely day
i felt like God was with me all the way
i didnt have brain freeze
i wasnt nervous
my thoughts were gushing and flowing properly(:
not that my interview was superb or anyth cos it's NOT
but i know it went as best as i could make it go
and i have NO REGRETS
tt's why im HAPPYY
lalalala.

just had driving(:
got a dunno-who instructor this time who ROCKS BIG TIME
he's so funny i had so much fun!!
he wanted to intro me to his son cos he thinks i make a good daughter-in-law *JAW DROP*
his son is TWENTY FIVE
ohgosh.
haha ahh well
tmr's TP aka driving test
i think i'll fail
i dunno-it's the nervous thing i guess=s
wish me luck!(:

i know it's wrong
but i think im falling for you

ONE TWO THREE FOURR(:

2008-05-04T22:29:00.002+08:00

ivan hasnt finished sending me the photos=(!

so i'll only get them two wks later after his field camp

so haha only one for now..

click on the image to see it bigger(:

meetup with ivan, chris and shueli(:

2008-05-04T10:42:00.002+08:00

okay im gonna skip describing my stupid SAT2-.- and my last jap class=(

yest after jap i rushed to meet ivan chris and shue at cityhall
where we walked to suntec to have dinner at nydc(:
i had meatball that ate manhatten and chris and shue had the baked pastas
ivan didnt eat cos he was having a nicee dinner later at crystal jade in celeb of his grandma's bday
and of cos we had MUDPIES(:
awwww.
after we paid the bill, we were kinda full to walk so we just sat there and chatted.
laughed alot with all the crazy ideas about pillows and blankets when you sleep in trenches
oh and what if you find shit in your trench etc
haha you get how crazy our convo is

then we went to dedicate 4minutes by madonna(ivan said it's nice) to 06s75!
there was supposed to be laser display but sadly the fountain wasnt working-.-
so we went up to the outside area where they have a circular barrier around the fountain of wealth
and around the barrier they had the 12zodiacs!
so being the crazy us,we walked arnd the whole thing and stopped at each of the animals
and TRIED to pose as the animals lol
i think everyone think we're crazy
and of cos we camwhored qt alot
i shld upload the photos here!(:
we even videoed
but it was chris doing this crazy dance and we were laughing so hard
even all the ppl arnd us were staring la
HAHA
we spent one hour plus just doing that
then ivan had to rush off for his grandma's bday
so we,being nice clsmates,accompanied him(:

at first ivan was like,i run first you guys take ur time to walk
then we told him to relax
shue started jogging at suntec,near the convention centre there
THEN ALL OF US STARTED RUNNING FOR REAL
it was crazyy
walked as we went from suntec to citylink
then they said sth bt racing and poof we had to run AGAIN
chris was really sprinting through the crowd
then of cos we all ran la haha
at one pt i took off my heels n ran
by the time we reached cityhall mrt,we were all HOT and kinda sweaty
but it was fun(:
and yay all of us took the same train back..
so that concludes our funky outing=)

im so happy that you shared with me so much last night
it was a lovely change to be the one listening
i like to listen,but i usually talk cos otherwise it'd be silence
but yayy yest you took initiative to continue(:(:
i was soo happy i didnt want it to end!=)
and i fell asleep happily yest.
my perfect ending to a day

saturdayy

2008-05-02T22:06:00.003+08:00

tmr is a busy busy day.
there's SAT2 tmr morning
i have to get up at SIX AM.
how i can manage tt i have no idea.haha
there's bio chem and maths,one hour each so i'll prob end at 11+ i hope

then JAPANESE class at 130
my last basic jap class=(
i'll miss sensei masami
and i havent made her anything yet=/

jap ends at 4.then gotta rush to meet ivan and shueli at city hall(:
cant wait for the catching up session
last night talked to ivan for 2hrs+, then had threeway phone call!haha.

then maybe meeting sean after that.
seehow(:

oh oh and dadddyyy's coming home tmr=)
YAYY

my promise.

2008-04-30T22:00:00.002+08:00

look who's the real selfish one

you have no right.no right at all.

today's 30th April.
and i declare that from the month of May onwards,
i will use all the self-control, discipline and determination in me to fulfill my promise
dont ask me what-.-
cos you'll be like,oh um didn't you like break that promise every few days?or sth as bad
but the thing is,really really for now i wanna try
so please have faith in me
and haha my dear sisters and brothers and friends,if i break my promise i'll treat you guys to a meal
and since im broke and cant afford to treat,this is a gooood idea=D
okay yay yay
promise SET.

i want adhoc jobs
someone RECOMMEND ME PLEASE
like those event coordinator events or sth
ANYTHING
after 8th May of cos
i hope i pass my TP
though i highly doubt it
i got this feeling i'll mount the kerb
no reallyy
haha

okay back to studying=(
oh this is depressing

AND i have this super CUTEE photo of my daddy smiling ohsocutely
i shall upload it some other time
i bet ALL OF YOU WILL FALL IN LOVE WITH MY DADDDYY
BUT muahaha he is MY daddyyy lalala
it was at little india at banana leaf apollo=D

cant help but wait

2008-04-28T20:11:00.002+08:00

someone very sweet dedicated this to me(:
i think the lyrics are very apt now..

"Can't Help But Wait"
[Intro:]
I can’t help but wait…
Oh I, can’t help but wait…
Check it out

[Verse 1:]
I see you, you're with him -
he ain’t right but you don’t trip
You stand by, while he lies -
then turn right 'round and forgive
I can’t take to see your face, with those tears run down your cheeks
But what can I do - I gotta stay true
'cause deep down I’m still a G

[Bridge:]
And I don’t wanna come between you and your man
Even though I know I treat you better than he can
[Hook:]Girl I can’t help but wait
Til’ you get that with him, it don’t change
Can’t help but wait
Til’ you see that wit me it ain’t the same
Can’t help but wait
Til’ you, see you, for what you really are
Baby girl you are a star
And I can’t help but wait

[Verse 2:]
Listen, it ain’t fresh to just let him call the shots
You’re a queen, you should be, getting all that someone’s got
You should be rocking the latest in purses, bracelets, and watches,
your worthMuch more than an occasional "I love you"I’m thinking of you

[Bridge][Hook][Brakedown:]
Get it together - you can do better
Seeing’s believing
And I see what you need so
I’m gone play my position
Let you catch what you’ve been missing
I’m calling out, girl 'cause I can’t help but wait

[Hook 2x][Outro:]
Oh - can’t help but wait, babe
No-no-no-no-no-no
I can’t help but wait
Oh-oh-oh, can’t help but wait
No, no, no

幸福的瞬间

2008-04-27T20:30:00.001+08:00

当秋天再来的时候
你要我笑着去爱去拥有
就算是再短暂的温柔
能重逢这仁慈已足够

可知道有些事有些人
停留在发生的那天不肯走
看时光的残酷
舍不得被遗忘
这命运我很满足
有你陪伴的辛福

为你打开时间的锁让爱自由不被它束缚
是哭过也挣扎过新让痛碾过
等那一天落叶静静飘眼前
已不再伤悲
永恒终于相信了辛福的瞬间

为你打开时间的锁让爱自由不被它束缚
每一秒都不后悔我陪你体会
过去未来轻轻重叠
请原谅甜甜的眼泪
感谢今生与你在辛福的瞬间
依偎

你很爱她

2008-04-26T20:45:00.002+08:00

one sided love is pointless and cant get anywhere;
so i know what to do.

你很爱她

当你决定你要离开我

我没有说什么

就当作你自由

有好几次我都想忘了

苦酒也没有用

就当作是寂寞

因为我能明白

她的温柔

对你是种解脱

就坦白告诉我

谁是你的最爱

其实你很爱她

对我的惩罚

说你没有想她

是可怜我吧

我已没有借口

只能放手

不敢奢求

你说爱我

其实你很爱她

她很温柔吗

其实你很想她

就说出口吧

我也不想多说

捂住耳朵

不想再次听到你说

你很爱她

kk.nus.

2008-04-25T22:19:00.003+08:00

and bit by bit, day by day

it'll hurt just a little less;

yesterday the kids were so adorable!
i had to look after 6 of them and it was qt a handful.
but they were soo friendly(: and they taught me malay.
3 of them were siblings and um the other 3 were random children haha.
oh but there was this VERY NAUGHTY BOY who took a marker from a girl,refused to return it and ran away from me and i had to CHASEEE him like this mad woman in my heels.
i nearly died.but ppl must have thought i was crazy cos i was laughing all the way cos he's this little thing running
boy can he run man.haha.then he uncapped the marker stuck his arm out and drew a line on the wall as he ran.
i was HORRIFIED.i was super scared the staff wld kill me or sth=/
he's hyperactive man.then when i had to carry him to wash his hands cos they had marker ink, he was soo heavyy
but i decided i shall go kk and carry the kids more often so i can get arm muscles=D haha
and there was this 11year old boy who stole my ward cupboard keys and i had to HUNT high and low b4 he was like HEHE I TOOK IT.walaoo
but it was fun.and sweet cos they'd hold your hand and stuff.and show you their soft toys
awwww(:

then i went jean yip hairdressing academy at novena to cut hair
cut wash blow for TEN dollars only la.
cool right?(:
and i think they cut nicely.
for students.
cos they'd try their best as their teachers will inspect and assess before the customer leaves and make the student make changes if necessary
i'll only go there to cut hair from now=D
jean yip rocks!

had subway lunch
and a stupid thing happened you dont wanna know
then met shueli to go NUS submit our portfolio=)
we had a lovely lovely talk and it was soo nice to laugh and talk and share our feelings abt stuff
oh oh we saw sophia's dad and mum at nus tooo=)

bought champagne chocolate and whisky chocolate for my dad on the way home at cold storage(:
just a little small surprise cos he was coming back last night(:
i lovee my daddyyy!

im sorry

but there just isnt chemistry

i love

2008-04-20T11:17:00.000+08:00

i love strawberries.

i love fresh flowers.

IKEAA

2008-04-12T21:56:00.006+08:00

I LOVEE MY DADDYY!=D
who looks young
here he looks constipated though LOL

sis with dad(:
i think she looks retarded

my fat chubbyyy brother=)

i know this prob looks random to everyone
but it reminded me of YOU

AAHHH GIANT BUNNYYY
or is it a kangaroo?

im on the phone dont take laaa

bed advertisement!!

Bed advertisement 2!

im JUMPING INN.
WHEEE!

looking hot and airborne=D

posing crazily=D

aahhh this feels heaveennlyyy(:

"sexyy" girl at beach(:

mittens lalala

and tt concludes ikea on 12th april!

sunday

2008-04-07T14:56:00.002+08:00

i feel like im walking in the rain;

crystal jade was SOO niceee=D
especially the scallop with beancurd
and the ohsotender blackpepper beef
and PRAWNS in egg white and sth
i ate alot for a sickk person=D
daddy chose the place
which reminds me,daddy came back from US yesterday=D
but he's going to thailand later=(
i miss my daddyyy

then we shopped till 9plus yesterday.
where i bought..
shant say cos my parents went like, how OLD are you ahh.
HAHA

of all we've said and done
remains the memories of days
when life was fun
but now
when you are gone

i sit alone to watch the setting of the sun

-it's on repeat-

walking in the rain

2008-04-07T14:50:00.000+08:00

Walking In The Rain Lyrics

rogue crocodile

2008-04-05T20:36:00.002+08:00

as i look into your eyes
i see an angel in disguise
sent from God above
for me to love
to hold and idolise

thursday
went for driving and got drenched-ultra-super-soaked in the heavy heavy rain.
went home shivering=(

friday
i FAILED my ftt
the nicee guy beside me helped me book another slot
his name is ridzuan!
watched rogue crocodile with luke
it's SO NICE
i love those shows where i scream a few times cos i get shocked
soo exciting=D
it's silly but entertaining(:
i think it's so totally worth the money for the entertainment and fun and shock and pulse-racing effect it brings haha
time crisis 2 is soo worth it for ppl who can finish the WHOLE game with ONE DOLLAR aka LUKE
unlike me who takes like 5 dollars just to reach stage 2 area 2 or sth
HAHA

like a rose;

brokenhearted

2008-03-31T20:36:00.002+08:00

torn;

im BUSY.
more busy than i could ever be but im still not distracted.
hellpp=(

and the longer i stay in the grey area the worse i feel and the worse it gets.

givemeasign

2008-03-30T20:00:00.003+08:00

i just made OREO CHEESECAKE!=)
it turned out perfect YAY
VAL'S RECIPE this time though(:
the last time i baked oreo cheesecake was 25th July
used claire's recipe then

vectors.
we used to be parallel lines that coincide with infinite solutions

now we're skew lines that will never meet.

disappearfrommylife

2008-03-30T11:19:00.002+08:00

a few days ago, i nearly lost your ring when i accidentally left it in a public toilet.

yesterday,i almost lost the pink adidas waterbottle.

i think it's sparkling clear

btw,shueli saw you.

with a girl.

i dont know what to believe.

everybody else could tell (cos now even i can tell)
that i confused my feelings with the truth
because i liked the view
when there WAS me and you

i remember making a wish upon a star in november on the plane to US

cos they said if you did and believed in it with all your heart,it'll happen

but i guess wishes on a star just dont come true

saturday

2008-03-24T10:56:00.003+08:00

absurd.

i was holding my dad's arm the way couples do on saturday night after dinner at vivo at tung lok restaurant group and guess what?

the people at those wedding booths at the atrium asked my dad and i to go take a seat the those tables or have a look at the wedding gowns-.-

okay so maybe my dress looked a little glam and made me look older but helloo.

not that old right-.-

i tell myself it's just my dad that looks young=D

but dinner was niceee.the food was soo good laa.haha.

had jap class on sat aft.

during our 10min break, i spent 5mins buying 2 dresses(:

i wanted to buy more but luke was in shock soo..HAHA

shopping!

and jollibean watermelon soymilk with pearls is the yummiest drink ever!

UBIN was HOT

gonna upload all the photos into photobucket sometimes(:

i was SUNBURNT red

as luke put it,i was COOKED

like a prawn or crab or sth HAHA

my tan line rocks now!

it was SCORCHING HOT the whole day can?(:

everyone was like it was raining in spore lehh,ubin nvr rain mehh.

nope=)

the sun was painful=(

we camwhored alot

it was a super fun day

that somewhat seemed surreal

cos it didnt feel like we're in spore anymore

shall dedicate a post to ubin soon

it's too long to describe now(:

cos im in the office

supposedly working=D

im sorry

thursday!

2008-03-20T22:04:00.003+08:00

for the first time in many months, i slept early last night-10pm
WOW right?=D
cos i was on the phone till 2am on wed night then thurs morn got work so..
tireeddd

oh oh then last night bro's tablet pc came
cos his sch is one of the schools tt use tablet pc to teach (textbooks all in the com,cool right?)
then i wanted one so my dad ordered 2 of it
qt ex though=/ it's 2800+ for ONE
it looks just like a normal laptop-.-
except when you log into windows, i SWIPE MY THUMBPRINT!
or fingerprint.
COOL RIGHT.
sorry i know.cheap thrill=D haha
then the screen is the normal can flip around sort haha

so now we have 6 laptops at home.and 2 desktops.
gonna say byee to my laptop='(
haha.

THURSDAY
ISAT from 9-12am
i was so nearly late!
cabbed frm wisma atria to RELC building costed me NINE bucks.
ripoff la
that day to shangri la only 3.60 -.-
BOTH AT ORANGE GROVE ROAD.grr.

collect passport at ICA building at lavender.
wonderfully,211 ppl ahead of me in the queue.
SIAO RIGHT.
i was like *JAW DROP* O_o OHMYGOSH YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME

then volunteer at KKhospital from 3-5
nuriani was adorable
and ANOTHER samantha.
but she's samantha pearl sim
my colleague's samantha joy loh
not FAIR.all the samanthas got middle name
im gonna get one too!!
conclusion: all young girls love barbie.haha

had dinner at yck food court=) with aloysius
yummmyy
and you were as gentlemanly as ever

driving from 555-755
my first time driving at night!
WOOTS.so fun
and i completed lesson 24 alr. (today's my 13th lesson)
zai right?=D

and argh today the romantic princess stopped JUST at the NICE part
not tt i havent watched.
but you know,watch to feel shuang mah=)

UBIN tomorrow!
YAYY.
um that's IF IT DOESNT RAIN=(